I'm An Idiot

If anyone's noticed, I've been M.I.A. for awhile.
The reason is apporximently 3 weeks ago I could not deal with the things going on anymore, I got extremley drunk and attempted to ingest every medication in the house. Luckily, somebody found me and called an ambulence. So they pumped my stomach full of charcoal and I then got to spend two weeks in a pyshc/ ward with a little guard and everything. I'm now on a whole lotta meds.. I guess I could share them if anyone wants to know, lol.
I apologize if this is not an apporpiate forum topic, so if it seems fit our friendly neighbourhood mods may delete it.
If anyone has been feeling like I had been feeling I wold strongly suggest counselling, just talk to somebody in real life.. Call freaking kids help phone if you need to, just don't be an idiot.
Now I don't want to go to school.. I'm very embarassed, hah.

Yes a big idiot, but I'll tell you a secret......... you would have been a bigger one if you had succeeded. And within a short period it will all be a faint memory so put it behind you and start to heal

Thank you all. I'd be lying if I said I was feeling better.. The people at school.. They ask really weird questions so my friend just yelled at them, haha.
The meds make me tired and I fell asleep in the hallway last night XD.

Hope u feel better soon
and dont pay attention to the jerks at school.

i too know how you feel, though i never tried to overdose i only tried jump infront of a moving car, jump off a bridge, and cut my wrist. lol
(the car stoped sooner than i calculated, i bounced when i landed form the bridge and i didnt cut deep enough.)

but i get where ur comming from
good luck
PM me if u need

Aww i hope ya feel better. i know what you mean though i stopped eating and tried to drown myself. it didnt work though cuz my friend Justin saved me so i starte cutting and he saved me too......hes always around......

PM me if ya want. feel better!

I can't honestly tell you that it's going to get better immediately or that it's nothing to worry about. it is. i tried to kill myself before. i was in a bad place. in the same month 4 people that were close to me died, my mom was in icu and my bf broke up with me in a text the night before my grandma's funeral. i felt like my world was falling apart. so i tried to make it crumble faster. didn't work. i had to do what u did. after weeks i came back and no one knew where i had gone. they were confused and i didn't know what to tell them.

talk to people. you only have to tell them what you're comfortable saying. it helps to get even little out. hope i helped. PM me if theres anything i can do for you

Thinking that it will get better is the only thing that keeps me going. I was fine, after being rather depressed, and now im down again. Its getting to be a part of my life and i cant seem to shake it. Hope things work out for everyone else.

Yah,,sometimes i feel like am idiot,,
but tnx for my friends for cheering me up,,
and lol of course it'll pass just dun lose hope,,back to school its just shy,,that wond help,,

dirtyhands

I have battled with eating disorders for 6 years. bulimia and anorexia have been huge issues in my life, i really wanted to stop my bulimia however found myself unable to do so, so i began drinking and would go out, get totally drunk and when i was throwing up because i was drunk i wasn't throwing up because i was bulimic (i know it sounds messed up but with eating disorders you willing to do anything)

i then continued using alcohol to cope with my issues, it was when my 20 year old brother died of a drug overdose on the 16th of august 2008 that i realized how i didn't wanna land up like him.l