*Eck*

I'm bored and it study hall so I figured I'd come on here since everything else is blocked because my school hates me. lol...

My issue... Me and my ex just broke up about a week and a half ago, because of silly things. I broke up with him because I was jealous if he gave attention to anyone else besides me. *horrible i know*

But last Tuesday before we had snow days I talked to him and we were talking about hooking back up, and he told me he loved me and I said it back of course. I didn't talk to him for a few days because I went to a friends house and he did the same. So when I got back to school Monday I find out by this really slutty girl that he and her flirted and stuff( I don't know what the and stuff is but yeh)

-Just to let you know I took his verginity and I really thought he loved me-

When we were together there was some really great times, but I always found myself hurting myself when he wasn't with me... But now that we're apart I still cry but I no longer want to hurt myself.

I want to be with him, but I know it wouldn't work out. But I just can't let him go. Or well the thought of what we had.

Now this weekend I'm supposed to being meeting this new guy from my friends old school, and well I don't know if I'm ready.

Another thing is since we broke up I've down way more drugs, I smoke weed all the time and even pop some pills. I just don't know what to do anymore could someone please help me?

Sorry this isn't better written, I was in a hurry. :(

What?

i'm really sorry you find yourself in this situation. first of all, you need to get out of this self-destructive pattern, easier said than done i know, talk to someon about your feelings. a councellor if you friends are to close to the situation. good luck, xxx