Block .. Eugh...

I can't write because all I can think of is this stupid guy whos 10 yrs older than me, and asked me for some 'fun' and I said no, and now him and my friend are getting close and I'm like a kid who didnt want to play with a toy until someone else started playing now all I want is the toy.
Aaargh.. He's not even good looking or particularly nice person but I'm so infatuated!!!!
(Also he's one of the instructors with college so its kinda taboo.. :( )

Btw, you don't have to reply.. I'm just releasing some frustration in the hope that generally telling some people will make me be able to write again :)

(I feel better already)
xx