I Cried today because....[#2]

I cried because she tried to commit suicide and i was the one who got the note emailed to me.
now shes in the worst place for her mind, hospital.

I cried today because...sigh..

my boyfriend got in a car accident....hes fine..but his car isnt...and my birthday is in 11 days...he was going to come a few days after...now he doesnt think he'll be able to.. ='[
i'm so devestated.....he already had to postpone it once because he had his marine corp weekend on my actual birthday..but now it could be weeks before i see him ='[

I cried coz my brother comes home tonight!

I cried today because my family doesnt care about me. and because i cant stop thinking about how much i miss eric and about his car accident..and how i dont know when i'm going to get to see hiim again ='[
and i havent talked to him since last night..so this really sucks. its been almost 24 hours since i talked to him....SIGH. =[

i hate thanksgiving..

^ Awww I'm sorry! I understand how you feel but your family erally do care...deep down they do if they dont show it.
Im sorry about Erics car accident...at least he is ok =]

I cried coz I havent spoken to my dad in 2 years and I got the guts to finally ring him and he said hes proud of me no matter what...i dont care if he didnt mean it coz im going to believe it anyways and no-one can stop and thats why I cried.

I cried again because we're finally talking...and he's reminding me that he cant come for my bday weekend....god i miss him....i might not get to see him for over a month for all i know ='[

I cried because the kitten that i was going to adopt died and i loved it so much!

To wasted tears:
i know how it feels when you cant see somone you love but you have to just think about how happy your going to be when you do see him, perhaps you could call the hospital and get the phone number extension to his room? That way you could call him whenever you wanted.

good luck
darkcrystalbtrfy

My bad wasted fake smiles
so sorry i got your username wrong!!

I cried again because i just heard my friend ran out of the hospital to try get away and she collapsed down the street coz shes weak from not eating etc.

I really want to go help her but i cant because what i just said her dad told me and im not meant to know argh!

Oh he's not in the hospital..he walked away from the crash...he just cant come here. and we cant talk on the phone because his family is running out of money so they have no phones......

and i cried again because i just miss him too much for words to explain...ive never missed anyone this much in my life. whenever this commercial for world of warcraft comes on i start bawling because he's obsessed w/ that game. and whenever the commercial for fallout 3 the video games comes out i cry too...because he had to return that game from renting it while i was w/ him last time...

and whenever anyone says eric. or i think eric..basically im a wreck right now...
i'd walk those 115 miles if i had the time....sigh...

I have thought so hard about what to get someone special for their christmas, and for the first time in a long long time i have actually let myself look forward to christmas and now i might not be able to give them it.... tears.... felt lik ei had been stabbed in the heart.

I cried to today and all week, because my 'rents always find something to get madd at me about, I can never have a day with silence, only arguing. I wish I could live at school, that's were im always happy...as I portray it ....

I cried today because I felt selfish in crying for my own petty needs, when others held their head high during such a traumatizing event.

I cried for about 6 hours yesterday....
i thought i had no tears left
but i cried 10 minutes ago because my grandma reminded me about my birthday...then i lost it again...sigh

^that's a lot of crying.

i cried because i wasn't able to go to my aunts funeral after i promised my cousin i would.
i felt horrible.

Im crying now becaues my eric is so so sad....hes talking about killing himself.....i could never live with that....that he killed himself...i couldnt live a moment with that....

I cried today because i miss my eric...and everyone seems to take my relationship as a joke..

I cried because my gma asked me AGAIN what i want for my birthday. again, i said "the only thing i want is permission to go see Eric again" then a while later she asked "what do you want to do on your birthday" me-"see eric."

she doesnt seem to understand....
no one does.
sigh.

I cried today, because i saw a beautiful baby ( my neighbor's ) and thought of how, for a month, i had one of those in me. And i cried because i kind of wish I hadn't made the choices i did.

I cried coz i really dissapointed someone close to me today and they dont understand why i do what i do.

I cried as i emailed my mums friend.. the last person i had to turn to for advice and he was there for me...he gave me advice in like 2 mins from me sending the email...he really helped..i cried coz there was still someone there who cares about me.

I cried because My Dad never showed to prizegiving.

The puppy nextdoor i rehomed yesterday has to come back and go to kennels but i cant get there to bring him back because weather is too bad. :(

I cried today because we're no longer together and i still love him

I cried because ive given up. On him, on them, on life... and its going to take a while to get me back again...

I cried today because my heart tells me that she will come back, but reality told me that she will never come back. I also cried because I loved her so much and I fear that I might do something stupid about it....

I cried today, becuase he was acting so nice, i dont know why but i cried, he hasnt done that in a while...
my friend finnally forgave me, but left me when i need help the most.
&& my parents dont care that I itry they just want me to be perfect they keep presuring me i think im going to crack one day soon.

I cried today cuz my friend & his parents died early friday morning in a house fire.he was 17.
its jus not fair && i'm so mad at god for doing this.
i really jus dont kno what to do right now....

I cried coz .... everything became to much for me.

I cried last night because my brother is standing up for her and told me I'm not welcome at his house anymore.

I cried cos i spilt boiling water all over my hand.:(

I cried cuz my parents think i have adveil in me for my brother, they think i cry for nothing and think that i need therapy. next thing you know im ina mental house.

Everything is going wrong right now and i dont want it to be christmas :(

I fucked it all up again

I cried today because i was watching the news and they were talking about the little girl who went missing in florida and they are almost a hundred percent sure they found her body in the woods next to her grandparents home. it hit me hard today i cried for an hour. its just so horrible that such a little angel had to go through something so horrible. im starting to cry again just thinking about it.

I cant get to work cos of weather so im stuck at home :(

I miss the old times with my ex.

I almost cried while i was singing my solo in front of hundreds of people tonight...i was horrid....absolutely horrid. i stopped myself whilst on stage, but my voice cracked by doing so, making me sound even worse ='[

and then i went off stage and cried in the dressing room =[

and i have to go do it again tomorrow.

im going to just jump off a cliff and save the embarrassment......='[

I cried today, because my grandma is very mean and very hurtful. she says i always look unhappy amd am lying to myself because i tell everyone i am happy. but the thing is, I AM HAPPY....she just makes my life so miserable. but when im out of the house i'm fine...sigh.

I cried today because I hate this tie of year...I hate christmas, I hate my birthday and I hate new years... My plan: to get drunk for an entire week and forget about the pain.