My heart belongs somewhere

But the problem is to who?

The love of my life who will never be forgotten has died some time ago and I still love her with everything.. but the problem is..

Theres a girl who i've been with for about a year now whos taken my heart. Problem though is that she abuses it and my trust almost daily, she tears me apart and reminds me constantly that im replaceable. But at the same time when things arnt down the ups feel worth it.

So im asking, what should I do in your opinion? Should I let my heart belong to someone who is so ready to tear it up at a whim or let it stay in the grave of the one good thing to ever happen to me?

"Should I let my heart belong to someone who is so ready to tear it up at a whim or let it stay in the grave of the one good thing to ever happen to me?"

No & No

Why are those your only 2 choices?

"she abuses it and my trust almost daily, she tears me apart and reminds me constantly that im replaceable"

It doesn't matter what the ups are like if this is taking place.

It sounds like u know the right answer to this, but just need some reasurance that its the right thing to do...

Oddly enough I dont know the answer, i've been stuck with a relationship that when its going right is the most amazing thing i've had.. yet 75% of the time its just pain and sadness.. the term leaving my heart in the grave is a metaphor not just of leaving it to my ex, but to not give it to any others because my heart is "dead" in a sense

"75% of the time its just pain and sadness"

And yet you have to ask if you should stay in it.

No one is really going to hold the answer for you. Everything you want to know you already know. If you are happy having only 25% of a relationship, stay with it. If you don't want to have any relationship, lock yourself away. Or you could lose the drama all together, dump the girl who treats you like dirt and not bothering being in any relationship when it is obvious you're not reay for one.

Well, its hard to explain.. things have gone better lately actually; which is why I havnt been around. Shes decided(after I lost my temper, which consists of me stuttering and not making sense)that shes been hurting me over things that have nothing to do with me.. go figure. Its been about 4 weeks and nothings gone bad aside from her father's usual drama.

I dont want to let her go because I feel like I have to make things right, for reasons I cant discuss on a public board >< Sorry. Theres more to the reasons than what I post, I just cant post a lot of them here

Then you need to tell her how you feel, Let her know whats going on. Because there's no point in staying around when she treats you like crap. No one deserves that, and she needs to know wha she has before she regrets losing it.