Who Knew

Today was probably the worst christmas I can remember. Besides when I was younger and thought My dad hated me and I was an accident. Last night my family all got together, both my brothers brought their girlfriends with them. Everyone had someone except me. I had been thinking about my ex all day adn how much I had wished he would be there with us. Then tonight I talk to him, and realize that in a month would be our 1 yr. Who knew you could fall for a guy in four months and not want anything but him. I don't know what to do. I jsut want to cry, heck I already did listening to Taylor Swift every song reminds me of him. This is the worst feeling ever. I can't tell my friends they don't know what to do to help me. AHH I don't know anymore.. when will something good happen

"when will something good happen"

When you let it. Dwell on what you don't have and you'll never see what you can have or do have. There are a lot of people out there who would die just to have family to spend the holidays with.

I think you've just got to understand not everything was meant to be. We can't all have what we want and as much as it hurts we have to accept that. You need to accept that and move on. His loss he wasn't there with you and your family. His loss you wont be celebrating a 1 year anniversary. I agree with BeatifulChaos, good things will happen when you let them happen. You're unhappy, don't depends on others to fix that.

Yea, one of my friends was finally understanding enough to let me talk to her about it. None of my friends were fans of him. I think it's because they are all good firends with this brother so was I until well this. And she let me vent and bring out the the negatives about him. I felt my heart mend. She said she was actually feeling bad. I put up with alot of stuff that was little but I didn't need and now I realize I was an object not a person

Actually 18 no I don't I just fell for him

After reading your post, I have to say... You're rather self-centered... You had a "horrible" Christmas simply because you don't have a boyfriend? That's sad. One of the things that Christmas is about is spending time with your loved ones. Do you not consider your family to qualify? Count yourself luck--No, count yourself GRATEFUL that you have a family there for you who you spent the holidays together with.

The only reason your Christmas was "horrible" & the only reason you were alone was because YOU allowed it to be that way. I can understand you care for him but you let your feelings towards him blind you from everything and, evidently, everyone else. You make him out to be as if he makes up your entire world, when he only makes up a small part of it. That's degrading to your family, the other people in your life & those who could be.

Like Beautiful Chaos has said, things will never get better if you continue to dwell on the past & on what you don't have. To find what you can have or already do have you have to let go & move on.

You dont need to rush love. You have so much time to find the right person, chances are right when you stop lookin for love it will find you. I know that sounds really cliche buts its true, thats what i did and it worked. I was dating this guy for 17 months and i ended it with him. I wanted a new bf right away but i finally stopped lookin and found the greatest guy.

I am grateful for my family they are the best poeple in the world and I couldn't imagine a day with out them.
It wasn't horrible it was just saddening to see all of my sibilings with someone they cared about deeply with them and then there was me.. I was just really looking forward to anohter person to share the holidays with.

"it was just saddening to see all of my sibilings with someone they cared about deeply with them"

^ With hearing how much they mean to you, isn't your family the people who you care about deeply? And weren't you with them? :)

"I was just really looking forward to another person to share the holidays with."

^ Don't worry, there will be plenty more holidays to share. I don't know whether or not there is hope for you & your ex in the future, but you're just going to have to let go, move on, be patient & sooner then later meet that someone who was meant to be for you who you spend the rest of your holidays as well as life with. :)

Thanks. yes my family cares deeply for me we have each others backs through everything.

I'm going to try to leave everythign from 2008 in 2008 unless it's supposed to come along

^ That's a very positive attitude. That's actually part of my resolution, to leave all the bad things that have happened in 2008 & make a new start in 2009. I hope it goes well. I wish you luck. :)

Thanks!!!

Firstly no one ever deserves your tears and the person who does would never make you cry!!! Break ups suck, they hurt so much and it feels as if everything around you just comes to an abrupt stop which makes you feel even worse.

Take what you have learnt from this relationship and move on with your life because when you look back at it you're gonna regret all the time you spent being upset over someone who didnt deserve you.