My Dad

I've been away from this site for about three years now. I was a naive eigth grader and thought I was a poet. I'm a junior in high school now, and have returned to this site seeking the comfort and support I recieved when I was very depressed. Three weeks ago my Dad died unexpectedly from a heart attack. I'm not dealing with it well. I have relapsed into cutting and I'm not sure how I feel about it. It was a struggle giving it up for three years and I occassionally slipped up, but I had been doing good. Now I realized how much I missed it and how much it helped me to cope. I don't really know what I'm looking for here. Just maybe somebody who can help or I can talk to? I loved my Dad so much. I miss him terribly and my heart is breaking. I don't think I will ever heal from this. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know how to move forward in life without him. Does anyone have some advice for me? Has anyone else here had a parent die? I just have so many unanswered questions and I am so confused and lost. Thank you for taking the time and reading and I extend even greater graditude if you can help me in any way.

As hard as it is, you have to know that your dad wouldn't want you hurting yourself. He may not be with you but you can always have him with you in your heart and memory and you can still do him proud. The loss of a parent is a terrible thing and your right, you will probably never get over it, but over time you will learn to live with it. Reaching out is a good start, but only you can do the real work of mending yourself (somewhat). If you need to, talk to a counselor.

My best friends mother died and her father never wanted her. she was sent to georgia to live with her aunt. everyday she thinks about her mom and she was left parentless and homeless at the age of 12. she never cut herself or used drugs she never damaged herself or her life. all she ever wanted was to change her life and progress and this is where i envy her. letting go of the ones you love is the hardest struggle of life. i promise u as the days go on the pain will slowly ease. you will never forget your dad but you should honor him and make him proud of you. cutting urself may relieve the pain for a minute an hour even a day but eventually the pain comes back. the pain will never subside by cutting. i used to cut and pray that id bleed to death. but there are so many other ways of coping. there is so many other ways of getting that extacy. i hope this helped and if u ever need to talk PM me take care sweety

A little over a year ago my dad was murdered while he was at work so i myself have felt how you feel. I have never cut before and when my dad died i wasnt sure what to do i just cried all day all night and wrote alot of poetry about him.

It was the worst thing that ever happened to me bc i myself was very close to my dad he was my best friend and the only person i could ever talk to about anything and know that at the end of the day no matter how mmuch i screwed up he loved me even more.

The only thing that helped me was talking to people on here and finding people who have felt the pain i have felt and i am more then willing to talk to you if you need me. You can pm me anytime and i will get back to you asap.

But to be totally honest with you theres nothing you really can do it just takes time and you'll never get over his death and it will be bthe first thing you think about in the morning and last thing you think about at night. But just know he's watching over you and sometimes you can feel his presence when you really want to feel it.

Me and my kids and my bf almost got in a car accident the other day and it was really close and we didn't get in it and i knew right after we experianced it my dad was right there making sure my family would be ok. But Im hear for you if you wanna talk bc like i said i know that feeling and over a year later i still feel that way.

My uncle just died in November, I deal with these things with shock, so I don't cry, don't cut, don't show any signs like this whatsoever, but inside I'm hurting and it's even harder to cope with because of the fact that he didn't live a happy life.
The thing that helped me get over his death was my family, since he died we came closer together, and that he has now gone into an eternal sleep from all his suffering.
Celebrate his life, make a video about him, write a book, a poem, or even an article. Talk to people about it, especially people who have gone through the same thing. There is still a sad feeling in my heart because I lost my uncle, but I can alway fill the blanks with happy memories of him and keeping things the way he would have wanted them to be.

Ah hun, losing a parent or anyone you care about is always extremely hard to deal with. Almost all my family has died, i also use to cut myself because when you cut its as if you're taking some of the pain from the inside and inflicting it on your body. its like replacing the emotional pain with physical pain and although it may seem like it is helping at the time all it leaves you with is awful scars that wont allow you to move on because every time you think things are getting better you see the scars that always remind you of the worst times.

The thing is that your dad will always be alive in your heart. when ever i feel down and miss people i go and lye outside and just stare at the stars for ages. I've always found comfort in believing that stars are our guardian angels watching down on us.

Write about how you feel, do things to keep yourself occupied but the most important thing is to talk about it, it really helps. I didn't talk about my issues for so long and because of the pain I was facing inside I became anorexic but am recovering and just know that there are always people out there who understand what you are going through and that it is okay to cry!!!!

take care and if you ever feel like taking then feel free to pm me anytime.