Y am i still hurting?

Listning to my fave songs, looking through old photo albums, bring bk memories of my x, even though i wasnt thinking of him, the pain still there, so fresh like we split yesterday.

why now? why am i still hurting? - its been 2 years!

now all i can think of is his face, the sound of his voice, all those stupid little things that i once loved but now hate. im trying anything to lose his memory but he wont fade.

im tearing my head apart because of his memory and dont know how to stop myself! im killing myself and cant breathe, i just want to be past all this, but he is still haunting me....

i just want silance, the noise in my head to stop...STOP right now!

HELP

IBE
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I know this feeling. Heck, I have felt this feeling. Now I know this is hard, but you need to trash the albums, stop listening to the songs, find new songs, and make new memories. Call old friends, go somewhere new to make new memories. It's gunna take time, I know.

The honest truth? Moving on is hard. We all want to believe that we can have that one chance to fall perfectly in love and have it last forever. And sometimes we don't like to face when it all ends.

The best thing for you to do right now is stop listening to music that reminds you of him. Stop wondering what he's doing. And write as many poems as you can about how you feel.

To me, love is something so pure and beautiful. Don't taint what you guys had by trying to hang onto it.

"Don't taint what you guys had by trying to hang onto it"

Quite beautiful but not quite right. It can be beautiful when you hold it in cherishing it :)

Your still hurting because you still love him but can't have him and what you have now are only memories. It's like eating THE best lasagna in the world..it's good while it lasted and better not to be sad when you can't have it again or forever.

*insert over-used advice about giving it time to heal*...because that's all that can be done. Unless you've got super EQ and can reason out 99.99% of your emotions perfectly (like alcohol but on germs and like me haha X-P). Love is as important as you place it. I hope you can be more practical and flexible with how you place it.

NO! I'm not promoting drink! haha

Thanks guys,

i got rid of everything that reminded me of him, apart from 1 thing which i keep in a little box in a hard to reach place.1day i may get rid of it too but for now i just need that one thing.

all the photos are gone, the music stayed, because i like my music but i have a wider range now, so im not stuck listning to the same stuff over and over now.

now that time has past and im sure there arnt feelings lingering for him, im trying the friend thing. we have had small talk over the internet, but havnt met up yet. to be honest im not sure if i ever want to meet up with him, im trying to gage the awkwardness level for us both.

i know ive deffinatly moved on, because i had a thing with a guy i met, just to see if i had moved on, to see if i was able to carry on without him. it worked, though me and this new guy didnt last - i think it was a rebound thing, but i needed it and he wasnt expecting me to be his wife or anything, a total player if anything.

now im slowly getting to know someone else, a really great guy, even had myself 2 dates! but his heart is broken as was mine so we are going slow, like super snail pace slow, which is fine for me, because i need all the time i can have.

thank you for the comments.

IBE
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All i can say is, trust me that in fifty years when you have had a settled life with your true love, have had three kids, two dogs and a budgie, you won't even remember this guys name!! Its all part of the learning curve. x

Well i truely hope so.
we walked past each other today, and i didnt realise until afterward - as had other things on my mind. we didnt say anything obviously but i lost my breath when i realised and all those old tinglys came rushing back for a few short lived minuets. i felt wierd about that like.
so i really do hope it gets easier and better in time!

IBE
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