sooooo confussed

ok well i hav have a m8 who every1 just found out id anorexic , i was anoresxic n stuff for bout nearly a year , when i was 11, n ive always thought i was overwireght since i was bout 5, bout u see im not i now im normal but da ofa day ma mom sed dat i was gettin lil podgey round da tum, l8r sie sed sie was only jokin but it really upset me , so i decoded to lose weight but it sorta went lop sided, coz u see i was just goin on ma fingy, n i eats loads b4 i do dat. but u see i can do it now , but im afarid if ma m8s find out theyll say im attention seeking that im not fat n ugly n stuff n it just bugs me coz i now im not as fat as them but im not how i wana be . plus since my mom just found out bout all ma cuttin places n all ma scars i cant cut nymore, so my 2 year happit has gotta stop n its hell honestly!!!!!!!!!!! plus ma mom wants a babi wit her 50 old boiu frend who i absolutly h8 , n i do hav reasons, oww im fed up i dono even now y da fuck im wafflin on bout dis i just needed to get it out sumwere soz!!! luv lidxxXxx

hey dont know what to say but seriously if you want somwhere to cut cut on your upper thigh it wont lead to sucide (unkles you lose too much blood) and its hard to find

i now but sie checked every were , well nearly every were !!!! da only place ii cud is da lind were ma pants go but like that aint very thick !!! god why did sie hav to find out!!!

Okay, the sad part is, that took me forever to understand. Maybe you should get some help. Thats all I can say. Im sorry. Its tragic...
but how are you confused?