Loneliness

Isn't ironic how it can never be cured. i could stand in the middle of a crowded room and still feel it. i could be alone with my girlfriend and still feel it.

i suppose i have tried all the typical tactics to get rid of it. i've tried surrounding myself with people that i don't know or that don't know me, i've tried just a few friends, but then they start to annoy me. i've tried apathy, i thought if i didn't care it wouldn't matter.

could it be that it is all in my head? it is probably the most difficult emotion that i have been forced to deal with ... so far.

anyway, if you got any new tactics, i'm willing to try them. but i don't think i can change my personality (unfortunately)

Lonely isn't just about having people around you, as you said you even feel lonely when they're around, so that would point to something missing in your life or in you. Only you can figure out what it is, other people and indifference are not the cure, self examination is.