What would you do now?..

I'm totally in love with my ex still and its been about a year and two months since he broke up with me. just because his friends didnt like me, we messed around and it got outta hand, and i made it sound worse than what actually happened because i didnt want him to be happy or think it was okay with me. We have talked alot over the past month because he would im me and start a convo, but just last week on a monday i went to see him up at school with my best friend and we got her cousin from up where he goes to school too, we hung out until 3ish in the morning and i drove 1 1/2 hours back to my school. Two days later, he told me that i was annoying and worth nothing, that he hated me and now he wont talk to me. i dont understand any of this, we were getting along really well right before that. i dont understand some men, this is confusing and i love him but dont know what to do. i dont want to become depressed again... but i feel i just might if something doesnt happen. help?!

I've been in a similar situtation that your in took me about 2yrs to get over mah ex I wanted him back so many times;but then when I saw how happy && how much in love he was with his future wife; I got the biggest reality check why am I in love with someone who's not in love with me anymore && clearly moved on;then I need to do the same && keep myself busy && be with mah closest friends to help get through.
Even tho he hasn't someone else keep your self busy surround self with ppl that your close with enjoy evey moment of being single && take your time to get over before u start a new relationship.

It's never just because friends don't like you and obviously he isn't into you unless there's nothing else to do, why would you even want to be with someone who says you are worthless? Yeah it takes time to get over things, but you actually have to want to get over it. If you keep hanging on and letting him play with your emotions, this is what happens.

Wow I know how you feel... But there's a time you have to tell yourself to move on. Why would you want to be w someone that lowers your self esteem obviously he has issues to be telling you that just play it off like you don't need him then he will realize what he lost! Plz don't let a man brain wash you to think you are nothing that's what he wants you to think and be all depressed again girl you deserve so much better have a girls night out I wish you luck

Wow I know what you're going thru....I went thru kinda the same thing. I finally realized it wasn't anything to do with me. I realized it was to do with him and his insecurities about himself. He only wanted me when he wanted me. He didn't want me when I wanted him. He would only want to be with me when people weren't around. It was like he had to hide me from everyone. I was his fall back girl when he didn't have anyone else. He pretended to be there for me until someone else came along that peaked his interest. Then I was put aside once again. He got mean and put me down. Then he would say sorry and I would go back thinking it will be different this time, it never was. This went on for a couple of years until finally I just couldn't put myself thru it anymore. I realized that it was making me emotionally a wreck. Thats when I finally said to myself "why am I letting someone else control me?" "why can't I live happy?" "where am I going to find someone who loves me for me"? when I finally understood that I was worth being loved by someone else who wanted to be with me for who I was it took some time for me to see that I could be happy with someone else, and that life was not suppose to be so painful but happy, thats when I met the man of my dreams. My new boyfriend is so caring and loving and I know now what real love is. There were so many people who wanted to help me thru the pain but i shut them out. Thank goodness that they didn't turn there backs on me cause I was a becoming a mean person. I think you need to look at the future and put this guy in your past cause he has certainly done that to you. Don't let him use you anymore you are worth more than that. You need to find someone who loves you and wants to be with only you and who puts you first in there life and you will find happiness. I feel like a weight has lifted off me now and am enjoying a relationship with someone who loves me. I know now that i deserve to be happy. It happened to me and I know it can happen to you