Today Feeling

I think I can basically compare how I feel on any given day to one of those game spinners from Twister or Life. First spin you get depressed, next spin you get super happy and goofy, next spin angrybitch from hell, next spin mellow. Today has been one of those days.

how about you??

Its alomost come down to apathy right now with all the crap from a soon to be ex bff just the way shes treated me and all so now its my turn to be straight up with her and tell her that i dont want to be friends and i feel that it will take some time to get over it she was my friend but not all friendship lat forever

I'm feeling so lost and full of doubts. My mind and my heart are in opposite ends. I broke up with my ex a couple of days ago and it kills me, I miss him soo much but I know it has to be over. He's not worth the pain, he's just wrong for me...I just have to keep reminding myself of why I broke up with him in the first place...

Yeah nothing is forever!!

and love hurts indeed..

Today is a better day!!!!!!!

Today is alright. Shes being really frustrating. But its okay. Everything will work out fo sho.

Keeping my sanity is probably the biggest challenge i will encounter while trying to survive the nicu!! its a rollercoaster!!

Im feeling happy today, after my fiance left me months ago i thought i had no reason to live. then out of the blue, my best friend told me how he really felt ( not romantically ) and told me just how much he cared.

Today I'm feeling happy, sad, hyper, not hyper, pissed off and then cheery. I'm just confused, I suppose.

I had a bad day so im mad

I feel like crap today....so confused about so many shi*!!

Mad

Same as the last 3 days. Scared to death, lonely, depressed and sick, getting more scared by the hour :P Life sucks and so does caring for someone

I'm sick with the flu; a migraine, fever, stuffy nose, phlegm, sore throat, the works...

Studying has got me stressed out most of the time...

And on top of that, as if the past month or more couldn't get worse, I just find out that my friend died...

Im sooo confussed.. i think im happy

I just exist right now. I think I've been in so much pain these past few months that my emotional side just shut off completely. I don't want to be cold, but I am. Someone told me the other day that I'm too strong for my own good. I guess they're right.
I know things will get better; I have to hope for that. It's just so hard to hope when you don't know how.
Bottom line...I wish I could feel.

Today has been a very sad day for me for this is the first thanksgiving with out my dad he passed away 6-6-09 and also my brother lives out of state and he could not be with us but it was kinda a happy day too becuz I know my dad is in a better place and I will see him again someday

Today im feeling better than i have in along time

Two days ago iwas feeling fine. Yesterday I was kind of ok, normal. But today I feel lower then I have ever been and the last time I felt nearly as low as this I tried to commit suicide. The amount of pain I feel in my heart right now is frightening. MY body aches, my head is pounding and the hole in my heart (whats left of it) is getting bigger with every second I go on. I don't know how much longer I can stand to go on like this. Every passion I've had, or everything close to a passion is shot down by something. My passion for music is dwindling even as i sit here because the music i listen to right now is old, nothing is new. My passion for love constantly gets bombarded by rejection and pity from the ones I choose to share it with. I can barely summon the strength in the morning to get out of my bed and every day when i actually do get up I fall to my knees and cry, cry for hours if I can, as long as I can. My depression can be tamed by nothing at this point other then shear will power and the fact that my friends say if I do kill myself they would never forgive themselves for not stopping me because they think they can. And so I go on day by day hoping that one day I will find a purpose and live life with a mediocre smile on my face but I know deep deep down that nothing of the sort will come unto me. I HATE my life. I HATE myself and I cannot even stand lately to look at myself in the mirror for fear that I would probably punch the mirror. I wake up some nights at about 3am to find my hand clenched so tight into a fist that I fear I might break my own hand from pressure. I dream nights about what my life would be if I got some of things that I wanted rather then none of it and I am happy. And when I wake up I cry so hard and so painfully because it was a lie that I almost claw at myself and even sometimes I do. I claw at my chest reaching for my heart, to pull it out and throw it at the wall and yell at it. The hardest part about dreaming when your in love is waking up. I used to cut. I used to smoke. I used to do pot. I did heroin a few times, cocaine, kratom, and kava. I hated it all.

Tired, angry, p*ssed off, happy, sad, annoyed, excited, not excited, loved, not loved, un wanted and un needed. F*ck it all.

For the past few months Ive felt like shit. But today, I feel like a billion bucks. I feel like my old self back then and it feels good.

Feel like sick :S

Horrible :(

Right now I'm very pissed off. I can't get my stupid freaking camera to connect to my stupid freaking laptop. Thus, I can't download any of my pictures. GRR!

Im feeling good

Uneasy, on edge. depressed. each day is a little worse. every now and then there is something to keep me afloat for a few hours.

tomorrow? looks worse

I'm a mixture of bad feelings. I'm hurt and depressed. Angry and scared. Too much drama with too many people all at one time.

I feel blah today.

That was the worst Christmas ever for me.

But I will survive

I feel so confused today, i've felt like this for about a week now. i just don't know whats gonna happen anymore. people say that surprise is a good thing, and i don't disagree. but this hasn't been those good surprises, they've all been stressful and there is nothing that i can do to stop them.

Sick, in pain, worried, scared, nervous, blah, little numb and under it all really angry, I just keep getting more scared and the more scared I get the more angry I get :P

I feel a lot better than yesterday

I feel very alone

Im feeling brave today x

Feel really happy even though Im missing, just thinking positive :)

Heartbroken

So confused...and depressed...like the world is closing in on me.
no one can take away the feelings. not even my boyfriend, who usually is great at cheering me up.

i just want to be alone, but i dont think it'll help anything.

I'm torn between two. I want to stay here, but I want to be there. I'm sick of being unhappy, because I can't figure out what to do with myself, or my life.

I'm so angry & fed up with the way he does things! I'm tired of hearing this & that, then I leave, & nothing is the same. I hate how he never tells her to eff off & I'm sick of the way he acts.

I'm tired of not being where my family is, & being so far from all that I have grown to know. I'm tired of not having friends, but not wanting any either. I'm tired of complaining about everything!

Feeling tired from the stresses of life.

Feeling hopeless. Wish i was there instead of here. lol.... =\

Was very excited and hyper.. laughing like crazy...
Now, I feel hopeless, alone and scared...