Ugh.

So im confused..?

what do you do when your in love with someone who you really shouldnt love. who treats you like shit and, probably wouldnt care if you didnt seem to exist anymore..?

but you have a gf, and your gf, isnt the person you love? maybe you do love them but..you know youve felt something stronger before.
like yeah, things are okay, kind of.
but its like when i talk to her, she kinda just, looks at me for a few seconds, like shes confused or soemthing? then she looks away and completely ignores me..like what? i also have a sence of humour she probably doesnt understand. its liek she doesnt "get" or understand me.

fair enough, cos many people dont
she also tells me all about other girls that want to get with her? okay, thats great, but do you need to tell me?
(like, why tell someone something, that they dont even know, if its just going to hurt them? and make them jealous? or does she want that? does that mean she wants me to fight for her or something? cos thats lame and yeah)
but from going from someone who completely understood me, someone i loved so easily, someone i would and would still do anything for..to going to a relationship where i just get stared at when i tell one of my lame jokes that i think is so funny but really isnt lol.
i mean, atleast pretend to laugh, no need to be so..blunt.?

i still talk to my ex..sometimes. but shes on my mind 24/7
i cant seem to get her out of my mind
like, id even get tears in my eyes at work or, when i wake up or when im driving or...well you get the picture.
it would be nice to know if she ever thought about me?
you know when people say that your the one? that they have never felt this way before about someone?
that the first kiss we shared was the most amazing night in her life? even tho it was in the middle of a busy street on a wednesday night at 2am in the morning.
when "the love of your life" says forever but..a week later they are back with their ex?
who..may i add..has cheated on her 3 times in front of her while she was too drunk??
like, i just want to go over there and punch this other chick in the head, then whisk my ex away in her arms and tell her that yeah maybe everything wont be alright but we can work on it together.

oh yes, so did i mention she moved to the UK?
so shes over there and im over here.
great isnt it.

i just dont know what to do.

You know what?
I think you need to just be alone for a while.
From all of your rambling above, it's almost as though you're with your current GF because you feel like you need to be with someone. You know she'll never be right for you and you know neither of you are particularly happy with one another.
You clearly aren't over your ex yet either.

I think you need some time to work out what you really want.

^ I agree

I think you need to break it off with your GF. Like you said, she treats you like shit, why would you want that? She doesn't even understand or get your jokes. She obviously has hurt you on purpose, it's like she doesn't even care about your feelings. I think you know in your heart you're not going to end up with her, but you like someone being there.

You moved on too quickly, you need to take some time so your heart can heal, so you can eventually get over your ex. You're probably not over your ex because you haven't found anyone better. Your in this unhappy relationship that is why you're still thinking about the past. Take some time for yourself and think about what you really really want.

"It's better to be alone and lonely than with someone and hurting."

Btw, I can totally relate with what you're going through. I actually just posted a bulletin about my relationship troubles..I should probably be telling myself what i've been telling you. It's hard but I think we know in our hearts that we need to move on...