VENT the second

Vent: Is feeling reakky alone now a days. I have a good boyfriend. I know he loves me and I love him but when a family friend died I started feeling alone. And I belive in god but now a days i'm really staring to question him. I haven't been to church in months and I feel i don't know him anymore. And I really haven't got to talk to my boyfriend and he is what makes me happy the most. I don't know what to think anymore. I just feeling alone and small. Becaues also i just stated high school. so yeah. Life is just peachy key. not really

Vent: OMG!!! Why is it my mom is aways like this. I do my homework, I clean, I do drama club and also get good grades. And YET when the house is a mess when she gets home I do NONE OF IT!! MY sister is the one who is left in the moring alone!!!! I'm the one who comes home and the house is trashed and I'm one to blame. What in the heck kind of world is it. I'm getting really tried of this Grin and Bear it crap.

Vent;
why do you have to come back in my life now? after all the strength i've built up. that one hug from you sent it all crumbling down.

Vent: I'm like a rubber band. You can only pull me so much befor I break. I swear there is nothing I can do to pleases these people. I get good grades, I do drama club in hopes of getting a scholorship to go to college, I do my cleaning, I have a good boyfriend. What more Can I do???? I mean really mom why must you come home and whine all the time that the house is not clean. You just now start careing. I know things have changed from the "old days" but it's starting to feel like the "old days". I'm sorry you can't be a stay at home mom, but I do help. You really don't care about what I have done. You didn't even want to go to my play. You go to all of jenny's races. You haven't really took the time to spend time with me. That's fine. JUst stop pulling or I swear you will lose your sweet little girl and I can turn into your worst nightmare.

Vent:
So I know I'm not a superstar, a model, a perfect diva. I am a regular person with a regular life in this regular town. But sometimes I wonder if these regular people are expecting more from me. I wonder, can I fill your needs? Can I fit that image?

No.

I cannot.

The demands everyone has been making -- they need to stop. These demands are not what life is about. Life is for each to decide on their own, without pulling other people down.

I think you need to realize that soon. Otherwise, when you finally do, you will be alone. People can only take so much stress. People are not pawns -- we are not tools.

VENT: i wish eveeryone could forget what i did and i wish that things would go back to normal... i feel empty and i really want to feel whole... sometimes i wonder if i ever really felt whole in my life. but sometimes i think im whole when im with him..but i dont think he wants to be with me anymore really.. ehh being a teenager is hard

Vent: Somedays it's hard to think your gone. It's still not really for me. It's been 8 weeks since you left us to go to a better place. It's still not really. It never will be really till I see your grave. I should have went to your funarl. But I can't turn back time. Somdays I feel you're still here then I remember you're really gone. Why did you have to leave. I know you didn't mean to, but you just had a baby. It's still so hard that your gone. I wish you where here.

Vent: Don't you just wish to go back to when you were little. When you where a little kid and the only drama you had was losing a friend becaues you fought over a crayon. I miss the good old day of when I was a kid. Yes there was drama that was going on around me and I didn't want to grow up, but now I wish I was that little girl agian. The one who liked to play start wars with some of the boys. The little girl that always thought she was pretty and loved. That little girl with no care in the world. I want to go back to being that little girl who hanged out under the trees and dig holes till they called us in. the little girl who alway had fun. I miss 1st grade- 4th grade. I same ways I'm still that little girl. I still hang out under the trees, I still have fun. But since I've grown up I started to not belive I was pretty, that i was loved. I felt alone in this world that always seems to have drama. Really I don't think I can ever be that little girl agian. It's not me anymore. Really she just like a person in a story. It's not me, it's her. That little girl that would cry under her bed thinking she would never grow up and live this town. Now that I've grown up I want to leave this town to go to college. To make a life for myself and gett married. Life is never simply but it's life. My friends are my family and they will always be my family. For my family was falling aprat when I was younger. and my friends have always been there for me. And I will always love them more they could ever know.

Vent;

i wish i had more trust worthy friends

Ive changed I have reeally changed..
this is what you've always wanted..
what all of you wanted, and now you cant accpet it..i tried to be the perfect child but no one is perfect my grades are good but sometimes people slip under pressure and you need to understand that..
I never meant to make the mistakes I have made but you do realised I have changed well I havent changed but i started to be myself again, you would never be able to tell becuase you didnt know me before that..
if only i was in 3rd grade again when nothingn really matter.

I freaking hate you. well not really, considering we date. But you really need to respect me instead of trying to act hard in front of your friends. You're mean to everyone i like. You act like a 2nd grader. Grow up and treat your girl right. Because my patience is on the edge buster. and this time I won't take you back.

I miss kindergarten. Back when we only cared about the lack of chocolate pudding in our lunch box, or when it was our turn on the swing set. Back when the world would only end if we scraped our knees, yet our worst enimy could become our best friend over the corse of one nap time.

Yeah, those were the days.

*I thank the poet, who got me thinking about kindergarden*

Don't loathe yourself at all. Just about nobody can accept things the way they are.
Everyone can be selfish.

VENT: I AM LOVING THIS WEBSITE! IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!!

VENT: Why do people have to say one thing then do another? It makes me so mad! I am hating myself right now! I frickin fell and sprained my ankle!

Vent: The girl that sits in the cubicle next to me is extremely loud and is usually rude to clients. She gets on my nerves.

VENT- I am very angry at my friend for being a drama queen over everything 24/7.

Vent- They say history (past in my case) likes to repeat itself. Well I swear to god if it does I will scearm and people see the side of me they have never seen. GOD DANG IT!!! And Grandpa and the Step monster of his really need to stop getting on Jenny's case. Leave her alone she is who she is. And we have been more then nice this week and have been nice to the monster and for you to call us brats is really mean. I mean really, people need to know when to keep her month shut. GOD DANG IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Vent: im loosing focus to who i am. im changing so much. i dont like my friends anymore they are getting annoying. my ex says i should find new ones. everything to me is annoying and the only thing/person that doesnt annoy me is myself

i have more but i have to get off now.. will be back for more, if you can help me with my friend problem please look under friendship and look up loosing me friends??? please help!!

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Vent: Probably not the best birthday.

Vent: One of the best new year's eve everrrr!! I'm so happy 'cause I'm playing the Wii with my best friend
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Vent: i dont get what the big deal is. it happens every year... too many loud fireworks, to many shouts, and just another year to be disappointed

Vent: I broke a promise. I'm not fine. I still miss my friend. He's gone and he'll never come back. He'll never get to see his kid grow up or grow old with his wife. It's one of those weeks I want to sleep and wake up the next week. I should never be left in a house alone for more then a hour. My thoughts drive me crazy. My happy little world is falling all around my feet. I want to scream on the top of my lungs and just get away from this town. To many bad members. To many people that just make me mad. I love my friends and my boyfriend. And i'm getting to much pressure from way to many people about school. Yes I want to go to collage. I"M TRYING MY BEST TO GET TO GO!!! I'm only a freshman right now and it's so hard being in high school and have a bunch of craziness go on and on. It's time for me to be selfish and change myself and stop trying to help others change. lol i'm writing a paragraphs. Playing Eric's song is getting easier not to cry too. I'm proud of myself. Can someone please be pround of me.

Vent ---
---I don't see why there are Beauty Contests...They just lower your self-esteem....
Bleh. I'm mad that Beauty Contests exist.
(I'm doing a Speech for a class and had to Choose a topic, so I chose, "Are Beauty Contests Harmful?")

Vent- my mom always seems to put my little sister first almost as if she is her favorite.

VENTING:..I HATE PEOPLE THAT FIGGIN LIE TO ME ALL THE FRIGGIN TIME:/

Vent: 90% of the time, LOVE SUCKS
he disappeared for 2 years then turns back up only for me to find out he's marrying my best friend's pregnant cousin!
he sucks!

I wish my best friend would stop letting her ex who lives in a different country rule her life. shes like a sister to me and what hes doing is totally destroying her.

I wish my close friend who is also my apartment mate didn't have a boyfriend whom I can't stand. He's an asshole!
If I had known they were going to start a relationship, I would not have decided to live with her.

I hate the fact that I feel like punching everybody around me, and get angry so easily.

B:UVGIUBJBbieh098th345tfg......Okay I am much better now! :] Have a nice day everyone. :]

Very, very upset. Why? It's a long story.
So, I'll make it short.
The guy I love no longer loves me.
That's not the whole reason.
We've been friends for a while. Well now he doesn't want to be friends anymore.
That's what really hurt.
But we are going to TRY to be friends, no matter how much it hurts me.
I don't wonna loose him as my best friend.

I am feel invisible sometimes. Like i'm standing in front of someone and secretly screaming in my head " Hello I'm here!! Hey look at me!!" And they don't even see me. I hate it. I really do. Grrrrr

So depressed.
My grandfather was in an awful wreck and we don't know if he'll make it.

Vent: I am tired of being put behind a boy, who is a jerk indeed. I AM YOUR BEST FRIEND. Stand up for me when he talks mad crap about TWO of your friends.

F*CK YOU!!! I DONT WANT IT NO MORE! And its MINE! Said this pain in my heart is all mine! Yes, its mine all alone.

Don't feel good. Haven't for 2 weeks now. I feel like a bad girlfriend. Like i'm losing control of my mind. This sucks. I hate feeling weak. I hate feeling locked in this house. I hate I can't be a good girlfriend or friend when I feel so sick. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Vent:
I feel empty. This shouldn't be true; I have THE BEST BOYFRIEND EVER!!! and I have friends who care about me. I just have this issue with the fact that I push everyone I care about away. Why do i do that?!?!? i guess you taught me well, dad.

Venting:/ i absolutly f**kin hate liers:(

I HATE PHONY PEOPLE