Hey poets...

Hey guys, I ain't sure if you guys still remember who I am. Long ago, when I was still active in this site I was really depressed and suicidal. Even at this moment, it is still hard to believe that I am alive and posting this topic. Guess I just wanna say hi or something. I must admit is has been a hell of a ride, and things don't seem to get much better than before.

Feels like I am a tougher person, now. The events of the past still haunts me and give me trouble sleeping, though it's better now. Despite it all, here I am... I have no completely beaten my depression and suicidal feelings but I believe I can take it now and it won't bring me down easily. I once remember someone told me that if life is getting me nowhere but down, then the only way left is up.

So true it is... I realize after all I have endured, I am fighting a one man war against the odds and I am always glad I wasn't dying of drug overdose in a decrepit back alley somwhere. Or squatting behind some prison bars, counting every second that passes in death row. Though my trouble are far from over, I must admit that I punishable enough to take them as they come.

Also, I would like to thank those who have been so supportive emotionally and morally. It gives me strength not only to go on, but to take those punishments each moment despite the overwhelming odds! I can't be more thankful!

Thank you all...

Well everyone here is so glad you are on this site and I am sorry for what you have gone through.

Lift your eyes up and have hope, tomorrow begins with a single smile!

God bless you and hope you enjoy your holiday!

~MaryAnne

You have come a long way, my dear Jun:)

Aren't you the brave one to post this, eh?

Talk soon:)

Ingrid

Guess it has been a hell of a ride so far. Even though I am only 25, but I feel like I have been reborned too many times and I have transformed myself into this beast that I wasn't meant to be...

I wasn't born to be tough, to constantly fight just to stand on my own two feet! Yet the circumstances has given me no options but to bleed and to battle through the harsh realities should I choose to live.

I constantly remind myself to keep my spirits alive, and never never quit the fight no matter what. But sometimes I feel so tired, like I just want to lay down and let fate decide what to do with me.....

But I can't and I guess I am too proud to lose. Feels like it's right to live a hard life being a fighter, than to live an easy life being a coward. I don't know, but sometimes I wonder how meaningful a life can be when I am living only to stand against the odds?

I do feel grateful that I am alive today, that despite all the pain I endured and still enduring, I still refused to admit defeat because I am strong and I have faith in myself.

Thanks folks... And I am grateful... ^_^

I'm sure this post will help others, it is very inspiring. life is too short and I think we get so lost sometimes we forget how quick it can be over.

keep positive. let others around you help too. xxx