Leaving the world

Anyone ever felt that no matter what they do they arent good enough and that the only way for everyone's life to get better is if they died? cause that thought runs through my mind alot hince most of my poems are dark

Yes, im feeling that right now and do feel that way most nights!

Once when i am unhappy because of fights at home, i thought about that too, was it because i was the mistake that they dont care about me as much? They dont love me? But then i think of my friends and all the people who do love me, and i know i cant do that to them! And i regret thinking that ...
so my point is, never think you are not worth it, because there are people out there who careabout you, and they will care if they wake up the next day and you are not there anymore ...

I have this feeling all the time, and wonder what am i doing here? i feel nothing is worth living for, and problems are just going to crumble over each other and pile up, they never seem to end!

but i have my friends who wake me up...

=( I know the feeling. </3

No, sorry. I don't feel like my leaving the world would make the world a better place...in fact I think quite the opposite. If I died people here would be sad...they would mourn my leaving.

Be positive. A pessimistic person will never move up because there is nothing to move up to. There will ALWAYS be at least ONE thing to smile about...let that be that reason you smile, always.

Define "everyone"?

"What makes you think that life is better after leaving the world? Just thinking about the dimness and the loneliness in the grave send a chill through my spine!!!"

^ As it does to mine... I'm afraid to know what awaits me, or more specifically if anything; and, afraid to leave all my loved ones and this beautiful world, which I may not be able to see the likes of again, behind.

I don't think if I killed myself that "everyone's" life would be better, in fact I think quite the opposite, I think my loved ones (future husband, family and friends) would be beyond devastated. And maybe, just maybe, I am someone's only reason to live. I couldn't stand to the thought of killing myself and leaving my loved ones with unanswered questions or in sorrow, guilt, etc. I also don't want to be remembered as a quitter, I'd rather be remembered as the person who fought for her life and became a stronger person in the end because of it.