I blame

I blame myself for my friend that commited sucide about 2 years ago, I cant help it, she wrote that it wasnt my fault, i just wasnt there when she really needed to talk, and that she couldnt take it anymore.... But she said over and over again that ot wasnt my fault.. Help!

Then It might just be that it wasn't your fault. Perhaps it was more unresolved childhood issues or family issues that caused her death. Perhaps she was, like many, unable to accept help or indeed ask for it. I know it's difficult, but you're going to have to come to terms with it.
I'm sorry if that offended you, I didn't mean to.
Take care of yourself.
Always here.
All my love,
Laura.

Look, it is understandable that you blame yourself, but remember that not everything is in your hands. No mather how hard you try, bad stuff will happen, and you can't always prevent it. You have your own life to life now, your own battles to fight. don't let your friends dead stop you cold. Accept it, learn whatever there is to learn of it, and take your learnings with you to your future.
take care

You blame yourself for one simple reason, You're not ready to be angry with and blame your friend yet.

It was her choice, she made it, not you. HER fault not yours. when you can blame her, get you anger about it out (I am not saying that you ever have or will hate her.) you'll start to feel a lot better about it.

Bert

yah jsut breath is wut i hav to say. live everyday..take ur time... dont blame urself..i no i wood to if i were u but u hav to think that she was depressed im guessing and if she hadnt done it then she probly woodve done it eventually and its all fait....thats wut happened... hrrible thing to happen but it did im so sryy 4 u but remember to just take a deep breath and jsut cry softly and ull realize that it wasnt ur fault it jsut happened u coodnt b there for her 24/7 and obviosly u had been for awhile to protect her... but now shes happy and she woodnt want u moarning over her any loner... so stop weeping now itll b ok

Thank you guys for all the help.. its really hard.... thanks again!