I hate myself

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Your are not alone, you can talk to anyone on this site, and im sure they would be more than glad to talk with you! if you want, i can be here for you and listen to all your problems and you dont have to feel bad about doing that.
Im pretty sure plenty of people have already told you this, but you shouldnt feel like you are a disapointment to the world, because even though you dont know it, im sure there are people who love and admire you. Maybe you should try to not push people away, and just go with the flow? Because if you keep thinking so negatively, you're not going to enjoy what life has to offer. Just take it slow, and enjoy everything that comes, put a smile on your face and try and appreciate the little things life has to offer. Im sure you can find something.
I can relate to you because for a long time i felt like that i was the disapointment in my family, sometimes i still do, but then i thought, why should i care? its their fault for not accepting me and loving me for who i am, and i WAS a mistake. My mum even told me i was. So whenever i was upset with family life, i would just think what good is it that im here? i wasa mistake anyway ... but nothing will be solved if i had just died...dont run away from your problems, because eventually something amazing will come along and you want to be there when that happens!

:) talk to me if you want!

First off I want to say God dont give up on us we give up on him he dont always answer our prayers the way we want him to he does what he feels is best for us yes like is hard and i to know how u feel and i will tlk to u anytime i am here take care and NEVER give up

^^^^ i am sorry if i offended you or your religion that was not my intent

No offance taken i was just lettin u know its ok we all have r own right to what we believe

Hey, I really hope things turn around for you, but if yu have faith im sure it will, just don't give up, and there is always someone there for yu to talk to, even me yu can private message when ever and I will do my best to help you..and I will listen and wecan talk for how ever long yu want but I am also here for yu

I have lyrics from 2 songs i want you to read.

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first is Message In A Bottle By Police

Just a castaway
An island lost at sea
Another lonely day
With no one here but me
More loneliness
Than any man could bear
Rescue me before I fall into despair

I'll send an SOS to the world
I'll send an SOS to the world
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle

A year has passed since I wrote my note
But I should have known this right from the start
Only hope can keep me together
Love can mend your life
But love can break your heart

I'll send an SOS to the world
I'll send an SOS to the world
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle

Walked out this morning
Don't believe what I saw
A hundred billion bottles
Washed up on the shore
Seems I'm not alone at being alone
A hundred billion castaways
Looking for a home

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2nd is Goodbye for Now by P.O.D.

I can still see the light
at the end of the tunnel shine
through the dark times
even when I lose my mind

But it feels like no one
in the world is listening
and I can't ever seem
to make the right decisions

I walk around in the same haze
I'm still caught in my same ways
I'm losing time in these strange days
but somehow I always know
the right things to say

I don't know what time it is
or who's the one to blame for this
Do I believe what I can't see?
And how do you know
which way the wind blows?

Cause I can feel it all around
I'm lost between the sound
And just when I think
I know, there she goes

[Chorus]
Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long
(I'm not the type to say I told you so)
(I think the hardest part of holding on is letting it go)

When will we sing
A new song?

We're still smilin' as the day goes by
and how come nobody
ever knows the reasons why?
Bury you deep so far
you can't see

If you're like me
who wears a broken
heart on your sleeve

Pains and struggles that
you know so well
Either time don't
It can't or it just won't tell

And you can sing until
there's no song left
And I can scream until
the world goes deaf

For every other word
left unsaid you should
have took the time to
read the sign and
see what it meant

In some ways everybody
feels alone so if the
burden is mine then
I can carry my own

If joy really comes
in the morning time
then I'm gonna sit back
and wait until the
next sunrise...

Benny I think these 2 poems ...hit the nail on the head..