Cutters?

Hi, I am Jessica. I have been cutting for 3 years now. It started as a cry for help, and has led on to be my worst addiction. I just wandered how many other people are out there like me, that restort to self mutilation to deal with their problems. I know there is a lot...estimates show that more than 2 million americans are chronic self injurers...what goes through your mind when you do it? Have you ever seeked help? I don't get help...I don't want therapy, this is my therapy as I have said numerous times. I know that I do it personally, because I when I am down, when I have been pushed too far, I need the pain, it gives something to concentrate on other than that is making me down. I want the pain to go away, want to feel like I exist, that I might actually feel alive if I feel pain like that, see my own blood dripping from me. And when I do it I obviously don't care about the consequences, but I know that with each drop of blood that spills, each cut, I am slowly killing myself, if not physically, mentally.

i have onli been cutting for a year... on and off.. i did it for about 6 months.. stopped to like 2.. and a few months ago restarted... im jst about to get help this htrus day actually..i think my mom wanted to pretend i was depressed... since im the youngest in my family... and i gues always comforted her and been the child ot get good grades and all that... anyway i gave up resuntly being like that... it wasnt me... idid it for her ot help her b happy... i coodnt do it anymore.... anyway... i cut myself liek u i guess for the blood.... im afraid to cry for some weird reason... so the blood is my tears.... i feel fake... and wen i feel physical pain i dont feel so fake anymore.... i cant handle anything anymore and at the beginning of it i thought that cutting i cood control. but now its another thing controling me... but i still love it.... i need it... it becomes a habit....

...if ur reading thsi and uve never cut dont! it jsut makes wut ever depression ur goign threw worse!!!!!! and once u stop its like drugs its so hard to stop ur addicted

I know its addictive...thats why I said its my biggest addiction

none of my frends seem to ralize that cutting is serious... i guessits cuz im onli 13 and no one really gets how bad being suicidle is...none of em get the pain..... they all kinda jsut think "o she cuts o well shell get over it." and i always hav thought great but sometimes i wish they had gone down to guidance and called up my mom... wen i had started bc it jsut gets worse... o well...

no offence!

i used to cut then i realized what a STUPID habbit it is!! it gets you NO WHERE IN LIFE accept deeper and deeper in the haunting world of scars! what i dont get is when cuters realize what they are doing is wrong and yet they do NOTHING about it like i said earlier no offence but you guys need to stop no matter what your situation trust me once you do stop you'll look at your body and see all those scars and wonder why.........................just like me

Emmerz