A Calling To Be Single?

Hello.

This is an odd thought that has been in my head. So odd, in fact, that I'm hesitant to make known such peculiarity, but then again, I am curious as to whether anyone else has gone through this, or is going through it. Who knows, maybe I'm not such an odd bug after all.

Okay, well the thing is, after deciding around age 10 or 12 or so that, like every other little girl, I REALLY wanted a boyfriend, I've found myself always feeling as though something were wrong and missing in any advance I ever made towards a boy, and vice-versa, when approached by a boy.
It's come to feel as though, at least for now, I am "called" to be single. I am 17 now.

This is a question for everyone, regardless of beliefs, so I'm unsure how to word it, whether it is God, or nature, the universe or your own heart that appears to be telling you to wait. That for whatever reason, you are meant to be where you are, even if society tells you that you are strange, or others pity you, or you yourself feel lonely.

Well, regards...

I live in a society where girls get married as young as fifteen<<< I think that's the limit now. Anyway, marrige is something so essential here that it is regarded a number one priorty, even before study and dreams. It's sad to say that some societies are still that way but things are getting better. For instance before it used to be either you get married young or you don't at all, and being single was something shameful. But now, it's better; people are starting to give study, work and dreams a higher priority and because of that it has changed people's thinking.
You don't have to be in a relationship to be somebody, or even to avoid loneliness. You don't need a guy to fill the space. You be in a relationship only when you're ready and if that feeling ever comes to you and only then. So do I think it's a calling? no, it's something regarding you, your personality, your readiness and your priorities.

I think yes, you could be getting a feeling that this is where you're supposed to be right now. I think it could be coming from yourself, this sense that you are complete and whole as you are, and there's no need to search for someone else to fit with you at this time. Plus, you're 17. I think it's fully healthy for teenagers to be ABLE to be single for a while. To delve into themselves a bit and discover their self-sufficiency, without feeling the need to chase after a partner quite yet. I'd say more kids ought to do what you're doing for a while...

She seeked of Love..found not
Their views caring..understanding not
Indecision indecision..chosen not
Love deceiving..do not
Love, when found, the purest and of the essence of who she is..forget not

Be still. For who is He of love to deny you of such? Seek the love of the world..for yourself..for Him..for him..for your neighbours..

It's easier than you think and harder than you know.

Chaotically,
You have said it perfectly.
"For who is He of love to deny you of such."
Thank you.