Just one of them days...

Have you ever had a day where you just couldnt take it anymore? where you tried to write your feelings on paper but nothing you wrote made sense? where no one could help you but ur self? where many times you tried to self inflict urself cuz you thought it was the only solution? you felt helpless? thats sorta what i feel right now & i dnt know what to do... any ideas?

When I get like that I tell myself that I have to endure because without me, the pets won't get taken care of. Without me my mom would probably start cutting herself. Without me this girl I'm friends with and like would do something really bad. That's probably the biggest driving force in my life to not do things harmful to me and to not just give up.

I actually do that alot.. when I was younger suicied crossed my mind so many times.. the only reason why i nver went thru with it was cuz i always thought.. how my mom would feel without me, how my little sister would nver know me, how my close friends would cope with me being gone... like that stuff always crossed my mind.. its so hard sometimes tho.. when you get to that point of feeling entirely helpless && having no way out.. you kind avoid those thoughts.. its hard indeed.

Always is. I've had a couple times where being strong for others didn't help me, and I'd challenge myself to endure like my own personal drill sergeant. Get on my own nerves so much to the point I overcome it just to shut myself up lol.

Alot actually. I think I lost a good part of my emotions while I was in Iraq, along with a nice size peice of my leg......So yeah, if you read my work, you can see that its gose from decent, to good, to really good and then way down to crap. its like I lost my niche for writting.

I know exactly how you feel... i feel like that soo much. i feel so lost and misunderstood. suicide crosses my mind a lot but unlike you, the thoughts that stop me is my biggest fear, afterlife. im so scared that i dont know whats going to happen, it freezes me. i dont think about the people around me, if i do its how happy they will be without me to drag them down.... i write my feelings down all the time, its just for me to read, and somehow my mom always finds them and lectures me about it, which makes it worse. right now surprisingly for the first time, i have been truly happy. im not sure what i or someone else did to get me like this but i know that i want to stay this way... the think that always helps me in your situation is to read, or vent to my best friend... i hope you get happy again

I've had way to many of those days. One day it gone so far as me wanting to cut myself. Thank god I had my writing and my two bestest friends around.

What you can do is not be alone. Hang out with your best friend, go for a walk outside, do somthing where your not alone to where you can hurt yourself. Also talk and/or write about your feelings. That's how I got over my feelings.

And behindthesmile I've been in your shoes. And that happness will last. You may think it can't, but it does. I didn't start being happy till the being of 8th grade.

Well im glad you didnt cut yourself.. that would have been messy :P

and no actually its fading right now.. im still very happy but im at the point where everything is annoying me, people i dont know annoy me my family and friends annoy me... its horrible

but i agree with you, being alone isnt the best thing even if you want to be. so you should get out and hang with your friends, go to main event or the park or something fun to keep your mind off things