Dont you just want to kill them?

Sometimes all these people in my life are just so ignorant! When they ask questions like 'what are you writing' or 'what are you drawing' when you just want to get all those bloody or sad feelings onto paper. its just so depressing to know that none of them ever have to deal with this and then they just rub it in your face. sometimes i just want to... *chokes air before taking deep breaths and calming down* Its just that sometimes you think that its not you whos doing this to yourself...its them
anyone else feel the same way?

~*LorienElf*~

exactly

sumtimes i wish they all would just go away and leave me alone 2.

I resent that comment Aimz. Depression is not a choice, it is an illness like any other. This stupid stigma towards mental illness is well out-dated, and it really bugs me. So again i say, people who have depression are not weak, cowards, and people who don't have depression are no 'braver' than those who have it. Whether the people deal with the depression is their choice, true...but the initial depression is an illness and not a choice.

Maybe they are asking what you're doing, because they want to understand more. Although its frustrating, I agree, I don't think you should blame them. Its near impossible to understand depression unless you have been right down into the depths of it yourself. Maybe they're asking things that seem silly to you, because they don't know what else to say, because they don't want to say the wrong thing or something that might hurt you. Depression makes you ultra-sensitive to other peoples comments, so remind yourself its the depression. Don't fight against them, work together with them to fight the depression, they sound like they care! If they didn't care then they would leave you alone for hours on end and not talk to you or pay any interest at all...trust me I've been there.

Be pro-active...research on the net a little information about depression, and some sites give information about how people living with a depressed person can help, or how friends can help. Print the info out, and give it to them. It might help them feel less helpless.

Or another way is just to sit down like an adult, and talk to them about it. Tell them what helps you, tell them what doesn't. If they don't listen, then they don' listen, but at least you have been grown up and tried to talk. Instead of sitting there silently cursing them, say it out loud!

Instead of focusing on them, and their faults, focus upon yourself and upon getting yourself better. And besides even if they are really shitty people (which it sounds they are not, because they're actually taking an interest in you), do they really deserve your thoughts and attention????

Toni xxx