Advice please on depression

Just a quick post, I binge eat, cut and do drugs and I have a gun in my hand and Im gonna shoot please tell me Im wonderful, no last bit was a joke just want some helpful none judging advice

katie i have read some of your poems and i for one do think that you are wonderfaul
i no that life seems really hard and like teres not much point but i just keep telling myself that there is
i also cut and binge eat to make myself sick and have just been told that i have caused myself lots of damage so believe me hun its not worth it i no its hard
try to keep your head up
if u need to talk my amail is its_always_best_to_smile@hotmail.com
lil kit
xxxxx

thanx xx

same =(

hey i cut...smoke...and...since i can't get drugs like cocaine or even weed....i take advil...i know its stupid...but the high seems the same after about 20...you feel the high...and 20 mins later its gone an you feel like shit again...
*kathleen*

ya smokings just a relaxer to me too...it slows down my thinking...it helps me think about my problems...
i think it depends on how long i stay in this house...
that people think is a home...
cuz if i don get out by gr.10...
i most likely wont make it too my b-day...
which is 12 days after skool starts...
(i'd be turning 15)...
*kathleen*