angry

I have felt anger before. But never like today. It all started yesterday, when I got to school. I was told that a friend of mine was send to the hospital that morning, after she got sick in class and passed out. They told me she was better, but still I had to go check for myself. When I got there, she was asleep, but her mom told me she was doing much better. She was send home later that same day, and I went by to check out on her. She was fine. Today I went by her place again. We talked for a wile, and I asked her something I had asked her a couple of days before. What is bothering you. I expected many answers, but not the one I got. She told me, that she had been raped on new year’s eve. At first, all emotions and feelings in my body just disappeared. I tried to get myself back to my own self, and stay calm with her. But later in the night, it started to get to me. I was feeling how my hands where getting tight, how my heart was starting to beat faster, and harder, and how my body was getting warm. I had never felt this way before. It was just too much anger to handle at that moment. I wanted to do something, but I did know what to do, and I did not want to stay on the topic for too long, so I did not bring back too many painful memories to my friend, since she was already going through allot. This was one of those I felt completely useless. I stayed with her longer then I had planned to today, but it was just to try and get her to feel comfortable again. I wanted to do allot, but could not do anything else.
I HATE THIS DAY.

sorry people, I just had to lay this stuff off somewhere.

Hiya

I'm firstly, really touched by how much you care about your friend! I'd kill for a friend like you!! She must really trust you too, to tell you about the rape.

It sounds like you're beating yourself up a bit, because you don't know how to help??? Rape's a tricky area...theres not an awful lot you can physically do. But seriously, just being there for her, listening to her, giving her support and lots of hugs - that will really help her to come to terms with things, and as long as she knows you're there for her, she'll be okay. If you can, don't press the topic much...let her open up slowly, she might be feeling a bit raw. Be her rock - thats the best thing you can do.

I was sexually assaulted 3 years ago, and had no one to tell (no good friends at the time)..i know that if i had just had someone there for me at the time, then I would have pulled through a lot better than I did. So even if you think you're not helping much, you really are!!!

Maybe you convert some of the anger into practical things, like buying her something cute? Writing her a letter to let her know you're there for her, if you can't put it into words?

xxxx

She is sooo lucky to have your friendship and support just continue to offer that to her when she needs it :o)

tnx yall

I understand now Timothy. I'm so sorry i said that in you're comment, it was funny at the time, but now that i've realised why you put that at the end of your poem, it really isn't. I'm sorry, i feel like such a kluts.

You have a right to be angry, any loyal friend would be, and you are a loyal, caring friend, and even though apologises cannot change anything, i am truely sorry for what happened to your friend.

Gurdy x (GoddessOfWings)