i need help major advice...please!!!!

OMG i had the worst day ever!!! well yesterday...but well...i only told the two...at skool...freinds of mine i thought they were...but first i was havin a bad day....then things got worse cuz at 15 min break i got bitched at by one of the two i told from meh skool...then at lunch i was taken to the skool councilor...i was ?'d....then...the skool...didn think they had no other choice but to take me to the mental health centre in moronville....i had to tlk to a therapist...she couldn't help an found me at risk...so they took me to childrens services!!!! cuz they didn't think i was safe at meh home!!!....an then meh mom picked me up an took me to the royal alexandra hospital....to emergency...an i was examined an ?'d for the fourth time that day....i told only half truths so i could go home that night...i had wait 4 hours to get to tlk to the last person...it ruined my day...i didn even get a chance to tlk to meh coz or meh best freind jay...i still haven't....could some1 give me some advice on wat to do...they want me to go to a therapist...i don want to go...not really....things are really bad in meh fam.....an i jus can't take it...but i don wanna leave meh mom...or lose any contact with meh coz...or most meh freinds....but well....i sorta do in the same way...meh coz has offered for me to live with her...but i feel like i'd be too much of a burden for my aunt and uncle....i don't know wat to do...an meh best freind jay...has been tellin me that foster care might not be so bad....that i could start over....that i'd be free...but i already know i wouldn't be able to get out very easy...an i know when im 16 i would want to but...they won't want to let me go....could some1 help me give me some ideas...opinions....what would you do???
*kathleen*

hey im not entierly sure what this thing is that u told people or w/e but if u think u wanna talk toa theripist they dont take u away from your family the meats are only like an hour and u only go when u want 2 and for movieng out and stuff im not sure it realy depends on how bad things are at home me and my fam have r probs but i dont think i would move out most people come move in with us actuly but if it is realy not safe for you to stay at home u probably shouldnt but thats your choise. and foster care i dont know alot about i just no 1 of my friends takes in foster kids and they dont seem to think its that bad. neway not sure if i realy happend ne if it didnt sorry and if u wanna talk to me more get my threw my profile theres a few ways in there

~Kathleeny~

no but all the ones i've seen almost did....they wanted to know if meh dad hit me...pushed me or mentally abused me...which he did physicly abuse my sister...he pushed me once...but he also mentally abuses me by making me feel like a slave like my opinions don't matter that im a nothing...that i have no rights...that im just there...but ne wayz...a week ago...i was planning to call a suicidal help line...cuz i knew things were getting out of hand...but now...im scared...i dididn want to see one...my plan was too move out an then go see a doc..get diagnosed...an start therapy...but now...i don want too...an i wont have the choice to see them or not...meh mom will make me...but anywayz i gtg toodles
*kathleen*

I went through that last year, 7th grade. I threatened to commit suicide at school. I'm still humiliated because of it. I was ALMOST put into a foster home. They pushed me into a therapist, but I pushed out of it. It's def. a hard thing to go through, but things will get better again. People will forgive you and your parents will still love you. It'll be alright, just hang in there!!!

~Sierra

no but...i don want forgivness....i jus don want to see their therapist's anymore...an i don want to go into a foster home...an i really dont want my dad to love me...i hate him....soooo much...its hard to explain....but well ya...i jus want to know wat to do...moving out seems like a good idea...but meh freind jay says i shouldn yet...but oh well im gonna go to bed now....thanks for letting me know im not alone...it didn jus happen too me...
*kathleen*

ness...that must have really sucked....but i don know if its righ for me yet...i wasn't ready b4 they did all that...i don see how im ready now....although i stoped cutting for like 5 days now...haven't taken advil...or even tried to strangle/hang myself....its been hard...an i act really happy...but im not...i'm just stuffing it all inside...an you almost made me cry when i read that last part....an whats worse is i know its true....
*kathleen*