Help.

for the first three times, what made you start again? whatever that may be, may be the thing you need to concentrate on to fix so you can stop. it sounds like youre in a really tough place and i hope you can find someone that can really motivate you to stop. maybe try to talk to your parents or a therapist. or maybe a nice teacher or neighbor you think will understand. try and find someone you can trust to understand and feel comfortable with. i hope you pull through!