Lost her :( what can I do?

This is kind of a diary just written now, it's pretty sad, I really need peoples views and help, thanks.

Mirstock (camping) (August 2004) I saw her, the most amazingly beautiful girl I ever saw, I fell for her instantly.
She was with 2 friends, one being her best friend, as I met Danny, he introduced me to Emma and her best friend Bex.

We got all sat down and talking, eventually Emma pops out she has a boyfriend, I refrained from saying or doing anything,
because it's just the guy I am, I just forgot about it, even though I thought about her alot.

Mirstock is over, I arrive home, she adds me to msn messenger I think, we just get chatting about normal stuffs,
skipping all that stuff as it's nothing much to talk about.

It's now New Year's Eve, I was stuck in the house drunk with nothing to do at all, I turn on the comp have a look who's
on MSN, then Emma messages me, we both start flirting with each other, she told me she finished her boyfriend,
and then I asked her out, she said yes, as we was both drunk I presumed she'd wake up and forget what happend.

Next morning comes, we're both online, she says how she loved me still after saying it last night, I was pretty
suprised, everything was going well, we agreed to meet up in Bridlington on the 7th of February, hoping it would
all go ok, I was abit nervous though.

Feb 7th 2005, my Mum drives me to Bridlington, I met her and her sister Debi for the 2nd time since last August 2004,
I give Emma her a big hug and kiss, we then go around Bridlington and have abit of fun, watch a movie, then we go to her
gran's house and just snuggle up and watch tv, as it was nearly time for me to go, Emma and Debi walk me back to the train station,
We was there for about 1-2hours waiting for the train, eventually it came, I was so sad to go. We kiss one last time before seeing
each other until the next time(?)

She got back home a few days later, in which she could ring me and chat with me on MSN, she said she had a good time,
told me I was a good kisser and so, I told her how much I missed her and wanted to see her again, by now everything was
going smooth in my mind.

A few weeks later of a smooth moving relationship between us go by, as then she's at her best friends house Bex, Bex says hi to me,
I say hello, get talking and so on, I then tell Bex to say that I love Emma, in which I get a reply "she says whatever",
I'm shocked, wondering what's going on? I ask, she says she wants a break, I'm really confused, she then explains to me she
just wants to be single, and I'm also taking this relationship too serious etc, I didn't sleep well at all that night.

Next day I check my emails, I find one from Emma saying "sorry for last night, I've only just realised how much I love you" something like that,
she comes online later, asks me to take her back, I do being the guy I am, we agreed to put all that behind us, seemed everything was back on
track after that, but I still didn't feel right deep down.

A few days pass, I check my emails to find out she's finished me for another guy, I couldn't believe it, she also explains how I was
taking the relationship too serious, and she said she didn't want to end up with a broken heart again because of her bad past, I tried to explain
I'd rather die then break her heart, she didn't believe me, I'm not sure what she could see in me, but I knew full fact I loved her more
then anything in the world, she wanted to be with someone she didn't actually love? I'm really confused. My friends told me 'it looks like she's
just stringed you along and so on, I don't know what to believe at all.

Here I am now writing this sad but true story of what once used to be the love of my life, I still love her, I don't know what to do anymore.

Surely this wasn't a strong looking relationship from some people's views with it being long distance,
but it was for me even though I only saw her twice, she meant to so much to me, I'd do anything to take her back.

'Shaun'