Was I?

I just wanted to know something. Don't look at my profile because, I want a completely non age biased answer.

Two years ago, this guy I liked for about 4 months asked me out. He was my first everything. Kiss, Boyfriend, Slow Dance... all that stuff. When we broke up after about 6 months, I broke down. I went to sleep every night crying and crying but, I didn't want him to be with me again because, I know he wasn't happy being in a relationship with me. I prayed every night that he would have a good life, and still, even now, though not as much, I still feel sad when I think about him... And every night I still pray he has a good life and will stop drinking excessively, smoking and taking drugs (which started up after we broke up).

Do you think I was in love with him?

Only you can tell if you really love someone but as far as I can tell you deeply care about him. But why ask now if you love him, not sure going back to him would be very wise to do. If he started doing all of that after you broke up, another heartbreak could be unforseen hurt. But maybe support from you wouldn't hurt though. Everyone likes to be cared about and loved, if you can maybe you can let him know you're there for him but if not, just keep on praying. I can't tell you whether you love him or not. It could be a kind of friend love or sympathy... otherwise, it sounds like it.

It sounds like you were really in love with him, but I suggest you go to some Al Anon meetings, seriously. I think that they will help, because you are also showing signs of codependency, which isnt healthy for you.

LOL.

I'm only asking now, because, when people ask me if I've ever been in love or if I've ever had my heart broken, I automatically say yes. But the other day, my friend heard me and she said, no... i don't think you were REALLY in love with him. I just wanted to know what other people thought.

Co Dependent? LOL. Yeah...sometimes but, I'm ok now. I'm moving on and starting to get into another relationship. But, i still pray at night that my ex will be all right. I don't want him to throw his life away because, he really was a wonderful incredible guy. I know I don't want to be with him anymore but, he desreves someone who's right for him.

Yeah, I think I was in love. People just kept saying, no you weren't so, I thought I would just ask.