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  • silvershoes
    8 years ago

    Shailja Patel's "Dreaming in Gujarati":

    The children in my dreams
    speak in Gujarati
    turn their trusting faces to the sun
    say to me
    care for us nurture us
    in my dreams I shudder and I run.

    I am six
    in a playground of white children
    Darkie, sing us an Indian song!
    Eight
    in a roomful of elders
    all mock my broken Gujarati
    English girl!

    Twelve, I tunnel into books
    forge an armor of English words.
    Eighteen, shaved head
    combat boots -
    shamed by masis
    in white saris
    neon judgments
    singe my western head.
    Mother tongue.
    Matrubhasha
    tongue of the mother
    I murder in myself.

    Through the years I watch Gujarati
    swell the swaggering egos of men
    mirror them over and over
    at twice their natural size.
    Through the years
    I watch Gujarati dissolve
    bones and teeth of women, break them
    on anvils of duty and service, burn them
    to skeletal ash.
    Words that don't exist in Gujarati :
    Self-expression.
    Individual.
    Lesbian.

    English rises in my throat
    rapier flashed at yuppie boys
    who claim their people "civilized" mine.
    Thunderbolt hurled
    at cab drivers yelling
    Dirty black bastard!
    Force-field against teenage hoods
    hissing
    F****ing Paki bitch!
    Their tongue - or mine?
    Have I become the enemy?

    Listen:
    my father speaks Urdu
    language of dancing peacocks
    rosewater fountains
    even its curses are beautiful.
    He speaks Hindi
    suave and melodic
    earthy Punjabi
    salty rich as saag paneer
    coastal Kiswahili
    laced with Arabic,
    he speaks Gujarati
    solid ancestral pride.
    Five languages
    five different worlds
    yet English
    shrinks
    him
    down
    before white men
    who think their flat cold spiky words
    make the only reality.

    Words that don't exist in English:
    Najjar
    Garba
    Arati.

    If we cannot name it
    does it exist?
    When we lose language
    does culture die? What happens
    to a tongue of milk-heavy
    cows, earthen pots
    jingling anklets, temple bells,
    when its children
    grow up in Silicon Valley
    to become
    programmers?

    Then there's American:
    Kin'uh get some service?
    Dontcha have ice?
    Not:
    May I have please?
    Ben, mane madhath karso?
    Tafadhali nipe rafiki
    Donnez-moi, s'il vous plait
    Puedo tener.....
    Hello, I said can I get some service?!
    Like, where's the line for Ay-mericans
    in this goddamn airport?
    Words that atomized two hundred thousand Iraqis:
    Didja see how we kicked some major ass in the Gulf?
    Lit up Bagdad like the fourth a' July!
    Whupped those sand-niggers into a parking lot!

    The children in my dreams speak in Gujarati
    bright as butter
    succulent cherries
    sounds I can paint on the air with my breath
    dance through like a Sufi mystic
    words I can weep and howl and devour
    words I can kiss and taste and dream
    this tongue
    I take back.

  • Daisy if you do
    8 years ago

    Wow, this is seriously intense! Cuts deep don't it?.
    With my "southern accent" people don't always get a lot of what I am saying. All languages are important. This was such a beautiful and sad poem Thank you for posting.

  • Larry Chamberlin
    8 years ago

    "When we lose language
    does culture die?"

    Such a painfully true assessment.
    My mother was a member of the Gaelic League when she grew up. She attempted to teach me her language, but hard-headed deafness was all she found.

    Regret!

  • silvershoes
    8 years ago

    This part (below) struck me most. There are unfortunately a lot of ignorant people in the U.S. that think if someone speaks English poorly, they aren't intelligent or trustworthy. It doesn't matter if the fluent English speaker in this instance can't speak another language. It doesn't matter if the non-fluent English speaker speaks 5 other languages, or only one other language for that matter, if English is not their native tongue.
    My ex boyfriend was Punjabi and started learning English at the age of 11 when he moved here from India. He spoke slowly, had occasional problems with grammar, and sometimes I had to repeat myself or slow down. I remember one of my housemates was also Punjabi and once she told me, "Jane, I wish you could speak Punjabi fluently so you could hear the way your boyfriend speaks in his native tongue. He is the most eloquent and beautiful speaker I have ever met. His words are poetry."
    How could I know that about him without someone telling me? What a wonderful thing. I loved listening to him speak in Punjabi even if I couldn't understand most of it. A phone call to his mom was music to my ears.

    Anyway, this part:

    Listen:
    my father speaks Urdu
    language of dancing peacocks
    rosewater fountains
    even its curses are beautiful.
    He speaks Hindi
    suave and melodic
    earthy Punjabi
    salty rich as saag paneer
    coastal Kiswahili
    laced with Arabic,
    he speaks Gujarati
    solid ancestral pride.
    Five languages
    five different worlds
    yet English
    shrinks
    him
    down
    before white men

  • Bob Shank
    8 years ago

    A woman was on the phone in a supermarket talking in a strange language, the guy behind her seem irritated and when she got off the phone, he said to her, I didn't want to be rude, so I waited until you were done with your conversation, but this is America where we speak English, if you want to speak mexican go back to mexico.

    The woman responded, actually sir I was speaking Navajo, now if you want to speak English, why don't you go back to England.......

    anyhow, why are people so afraid of other cultures?