need some help

k here goes about 9 months ago i lost my one true love and have never really been able to accepte the fact that i will never see him again, he knew things baout me that made m hate myself but he was there 4 me still loved and all that!

recently ive bben getting to know 2 great guys and ive been getting on really well with all them! but then one ask me if we wanted to start seeing eachother and i thought it sounded like a good idea although i still didnt tell him what i was really like iw anted to learn to trust him first, we were getting on god and i spoke to the other guy that i liked and explain to him that i may be seeing someone else! he went insain tld me that he hated me and i tried so much to appoiligize and eh told me that id hurt him real abd and that he didnt wana talk 2 me ever agian and all this stuff which really upset me. i then got all upset and this guys sister is my best mate and she txt me tellin me she hated me and that she couldnt believ id hurt him!
i was so hurt id lost my bets friend a good guy in the space on an hour then i txt the guy i was seein telling him and he told me it wasnt worth it
i was all alone and i felt real bad that night ididnt sleep and the next day took some tablets to numb the pain i didnt wnat to die just wanted the pain 2 go away then i went to scholl and was sick and collapesed and stuff thing is now none of them want nething to do with me and i dnt no what to do ive lost my best frined and she means the world to me i cant hold on nemore ne advice???

thanks
lily kit

Aww please stick in there, stay strong, well maybe your best friend isn't as good as she seemed if she has nothing to do with you that quick, just try and make it up to them as much as you can, maybe they'll forgive you, just don't give up pleaseee, sorry I couldn't offer any more helpful advice, stay strong xxx

You have to stay strong and hold on and fi your best friend isn't there for you in your most time of need was she really your best friend? I mean shouldn't she be trying to console you and not hate you? I hope i help

thanks guys means alot still really confussed any one else got ne1 ideas?

i'm so sorry i know a guy kind of like how you known that you lost about nine months ago and i can't even imagine him dieing and how rough it would be i've known him all my life. this must be really hard for you. it was good even being able to see yourself moving ahead and trying to find someone else thought that sounds brave of you sorry it backfired on you. if i were you just talk it over with your friend and they guy. if they really were your friends before then they will find the heart to forgive you and things will slowly and i mean slowly get back to the way it use to be. if they can't forgive you then just move on, you can find much better people in life that will understand you, beleive me! PLP (peace love power)

~lil slam~