i dont know anymore

my life is hell.
for the past 2 years
my dad hits my mom like brakes her bones and shit
my sister wants to die
my mom has to go to jail for fucking something she didnt do. for 5!!!!!!! years
my dad soon is going to jail for drugs
my family has no cash
we live off bread
my dad has hit me
my house is always a mess
i have to wash my cloths in the tub

its never use to be like this.
my mom and dad use to have jobs
i use to eat meals.

i go to skool and i look happy all the time
the guy i like eric,
he got kick out of his house.
he cuts his arms.
but im ok that he does.
he has the same kind of problems i do
he sleeps in the parks at night
all his stuff he keeps in his back pac
were in high skool
and i no were young.
but owr lives are so bad.
i wish my life would get better
and his to
he wont let me comfort him in anyway
he is rele dark
i mean in like, his out look in life.
and i just want things to get better.
i dont cut.
but i wright my pain.
and i cry.
and i runaway. just to feel like i can runaway from my problems

but he cuts.
he says he does not want to hurt any1
so he cuts,
he said he wants to feel alive. and that he is real
and all this is rele bugging me

yes at home. my dad has friends that do things like get the internet for free. they steel. so we have a stolen TV

Im sorry for you. I'm sure it is very hard to try and have a positive outlook on life when it sucks so bad. All you can do is keep praying to god that your life will somehow get a little better each day, and maybe, just maybe, life will start to brighten up a little bit.

Truly sorry, I am.....life will get better, just hang in there and be there for your friend....I don't know what else to say.....misery loves company....

Kalika