How Did You Start? Just Curious....

well lately ive been on the verge of cutting a lot...and i was just wondering...how did some of you start? like what was going through your minds? and for what reasons did you start to cut or self harm in any other ways? just curious because im trying to sort this all out right now...

well i was mad and pissed off and hurt and torn so i smashed a beer bottle against a tree and cut.my first time and at first it seemed stupid but later when things piled up on me...i turned to it again.and it was my only relief....

Well I was in yr3, my auntie had been run over my a drunk driver and he kept making up excuses why he couldn't go to court, my mum couldn't cope, no one cared at school and this girl had just fallen out with me and made up names that really hurt me, after pretending to be my best friend. I didn't realise I was self-harming, but I just got lots of pins and stuck them into me until they all started to bleed, the next day the girl was friends with me (she had made everyone hate me) and things were back to normal, I thought it worked in a way. It then became an addiction and I couldn't cope without it. But I have now stopped for about a month, and I'm getting better. xxx

I started when I was 8, everyone was hurting me and I sorta thought it was right to hurt myself cus everyone else is hurting me too and I guess I wanted to fit in.. I was stupid huh? I started mostly because of my mom she would always abuse me when she was angry. I was like her punching bag. I started with the idea of carving pictures into my body, like I would make a design and draw it in pen the I would use a safety pin to carve it out. Sometimes I would pour hot wax into my woulds and stuff. Anyways, before I go on forever about my problems I would like to end this post.
Take care.
-nick

Magic

No just kidding. I was in a really bad mood and this girl I knew had been telling me about how she did it all the time because of some guy and I got to thinking about how it would feel. SO I got out a pair of scissors and when I decided they werent sharp enough I started going crazy looking for something sharp enough.

well tonight i was just doing the very top of my skin with scissors and i accidently drew blood. i didnt mean to, but it really really freaked me out. i promised myself i would never ever ever do it again. besides i was too scared to see if it helped at all or not, but im never going to frighten myself that badly again.

When i was about twelve, i had a sufficating boyfriend and i was coping with ana. What about you LoreinElf, why do you want to cut?