It's been three years...

well just typing this because I have no one else to talk to about this so I'm going to just type about it and get it off my mind....
it's been three years today that my best friend committed suicide, and I found her dying....it is also been three years today since I was raped last.....pretty emotional day for me, but none of the friends I have here (I moved in the last three years) know about what happened, and my family doesn't know that I was raped, so I'm just kind of dealing with it on my own....Well just thought I'd get it off my mind....don't have to reply.....

Kalika

that's tough dude! POWER TO THE PEOPLE! *random* but 3 years is a long time...but i guess not when it's something that afffected you so much. wish there was something i could do!

hey... you've had it pretty bad, maybe you should get in touch with some old friends and talk to them about it, if they're still willing to help. I know how it feels to lose a friend infront of you, it hurts like hell, i've had it happen to me many times but when you're dealing with it alone it's worse. You need someone to talk to, so that's why i think you should g et in touch with some old friends, or get a current friend you trust heaps and tell him/her, sounds pretty hard but it would be best if you ad someone to talk to...

Thanks a lot....see I'm not much of a talking in person kind of person (if that made sense) and I find it sooo much easier to talk to a bunch of people I don't know....I told my really good friend about how I was raped but I didn't talk about my friend....I'm not sure why....any case, I would talk to him now, but he's not around at the moment, and he's the only one I feel I can trust...and old friends, I havn't talked to in forever, and most of them didn't know the half of it anyways...

Kalika

Well if you find it easier talking to people you don't know, you could talk to me if you have msn. I know what it feels like so yeah...

Thanks a lot, I would talk to you tonight but Jake (my son) is up wondering around upstairs, so I'm going to have to sign off, but hey, my e-mail is cindy_lou_who53@hotmail.com, chat to you later....

Kalika

You have got through 3 years so far .. That's something to be proud of. Many people would have crumbled.

There are plenty of people you can talk to .. If you need a person to bounce things off.

Take care

^^Kal

Well done, I'm sorry it's been so tough but you've done really well so far. Like someone else said, it would be a good idea to get in touch with someone you used to know, maybe just over the internet or something if you didn't want to talk in person? Good luck x

Wow hun, I am so sorry that you're going through this alone! If there is anything I can do or if you want to talk, just message me, okay? Love you.

going through this for 3 years, and hanging in there upto now is amazing, someone i know has very much like the time you have been through for 3-4 years, and every step of the way i have tried to help her. i know it is a hard thing to do to tell your parents, but they will understand, my friend told her parents after 3 years, they we confused as to why she did not tell them before, but it made them closer and more understanding as to why she felt the way she did. talking things through with your parents can make a difference, it is a tough thing to do and very hard to gain the confidence. if you can tell your parents, they can help...

if you would like any help at anytime, my hotmail is alien242k@hotmail.com and you can reach me there

take care and i hope you are ok.

- Oli x

I understand it's a very hard time for you i love your poems and have read all of the ones about you and your friend and her beaughtiful son. I'm very proud of you for taking care of her son, and just remember that thankfully it has been three years and although the pain will never go away at least you want have to go through it again soon.

Thank a lot everyone, you've been great....really appreciate all the advice you've given me and I think I will take you up on some of it....

Kalika