Please Dont Judge Me

I've spent the last 12 months convincing myself that i had hepatitis C. An incurable disease (not sure thats the right word) that will eventually kill you... And now, i've realised i dont... Last year i went a bit wild, and now i guess im paying for it.. I've got a bad reputation, an addiction to alcohol, and a long list of males that i've had contact with..... I want to change all of this, but i dont know how...

All i want is to get back with my ex boyfriend, but that seems impossible at the moment... I dont know what can change my life around, because i feel like i jus need someone there for me.

you sound a bit like me at some times. not all the time, but sometimes, like when i see a disease on tv, for awhile, i freak out a bit and almost think i have it, usually it goes away after awhile though. well it seems like you really want to get things back together, and if youre really that determined, just try and tell him, maybe he'll understand. good luck!

thank you both for your comforting words:)

hey gal! firstly dont ever be ashamed of ur self! we all make mistakes hun but thats what helps us grow and turn into the people we are today.secondly, i rekonment tellin a close friend or paernt how u are feeling and ask them for support regarding turning ur life around because even tho itll be ahrd itll eb easier with someone there for ya! maybe u shud check urself into AA (alcohols annominous) and get that out of the way first. thirdly i think that u should hold back with ur ex. by this i mean focus on urself for a while, tru turning ur life around and dont let ppl get u down! then when ur at a time when u feel better about urself and things are working out then ur ex will be able to see uve changed for the better and then u can assess whether u want to get bk with him n find out if he feels the same! hope this helps u luv...just my opinion at the end o the day!
best of luck!
xxxLoUxxx

dont b ashamed, i used to drink alot. i spent hundreds of pounds on alcohol in 3-4 months last yr an im only 16. i was drunk every couple of days in the summer hols an every day up till new yr. its nothin to b ashamed of, it just a bit of fun. as for the guys, u learn from your mistakes

the only person who can help u change is urself. be confident that u can change an u can. i changed myself almost ova night. i hardly drink an im loyal to my b/f weras i cheated on all of last yrs

Learn from the past and do your future differently.

Pick up a big book and do the steps, go to meetings, if you come to find you are not an alcoholic, the steps and the program make you grow anyway, if you are an alcoholic, recovery will change your life, show you how to manage it, and show you how to get honest with others, but more importantly yourself.

You cannot go wrong with recovery. If everyone did the steps the world would be a better place.