i for really want to die

i am NOT posting this for attention everyone around me is dying or leaving or something hailie she was so beautiful she had SO much to live for and none of that exists anymore i just can't take all this frustration!!

funny im not going to kill myself im not ready to die

will do

teys you are REALLY not funny

sarcasimhumor usually sarcasim is used as a form of humor

Emmerz, Hailie meant a lot to me too. I've come to the unfortunate conclusion that we can't dwell on this. We have to keep moving on and being strong for Hailie's sake. She doesn't want to cut, she was sick of it and I know that. She got mad at me when I first started, so there's no way i'm EVER going back to it now. Emmerz, we just have to carry on i guess.

ive tried to keep my hopes up but ill admit it IM JUST A POSER!!!! i pretend im happy i pretend that everything is alright.....i even lied to my best friends face i looked her in the eyes and told her i stopped cutting and that i was happy!! im a worthless piece of shit!!

these past few years ive called my life
have been nothing but lies
i would put this mask on my face
so it would seem that i was happy
but inside i was trying
to keep the tears inside

i think in a sense everyone is a poser and is pretending to be something they're not and trying to fake it. being "happy" isn't that hard for people who are truly joyous and spiritual. but actually playing the role of happiness isn't that hard either sometimes, i guess thats why so many hide their pain with fake smiles.

i just can't stand my life anymore i can't stand the lie im living! i just want to go back in time and make it all go away!! i just hate myself for everything ive done

i do too. every tiny mistake i have made, i wish i could erase it and then correct my life to make it worth living at this moment.

i always tell people ill always be here for you if you ever need to talk but how many of the people who can trust me say they will be there for me to? none of them! it just shows how worthless i really am

emm...i know how you feel....

you are not worthless. i don't believe a single soul is worthless. if you need someone, honestly and truly, to be there for you...i will for certain listen to you.

I'm sorry, but for people who say they cared deeply about Hailie, you're sure taking death as a serious option. SHE WOULDN"T WANT IT!!! STOP TREATING YOURSELF LIKE THIS!!!!!! If she's dead, then I hope she's in heaven, because she never wanted anyone to cut or anyone to die that she loved. So don't be stupid, please respect her wish.

julianna what do you mean?

sierra she didn't even know me! why would she care what happens to me? why does anyone care?

Emmerz, she doesn't want anyone to make the same mistake she made, I'm sure. Hailie loved almost everyone. She would have loved you too. Trust me.

no one as nice as her would want someone they love to do such a thing.

but i just dont understand why i care for pretty much every single person on this site i try my best to help them with their problems and i do but what do i recieve? nothing!

what did you want to receive?

love

because i dont get ANY at home all i get are hurtful words and bruises

aw, sweetheart, how did they not give you any love? if they didn't, i'm sure they really did not realize it.

Love is supposed to be selfless, so really, you're not giving love, just encouragment. Love is the idea of genuinely caring for someone without expecting anything in return. Hailie really loved everyone because she did believe everyone was good at heart, just not her dad.

R.I.P. Hailie.

its hard to explain how i didn't recieve any but i have to go otherwise il get a new bruise for my collection

bye

i agree with you strongly, sierra.

Thanks Andrea!!

Question: Do you really know if Hailie is dead? Or was she just an internet friend? If so maybe she didn't kill herself... Maybe she just said she was going to, and then got offline and when out... Who knows? And who cares? ^^

yeh i spoke to tht hailie girl on here....she asled me for some advice....did she kill herself?? or is tht another hailie????? plsssssss tell me the hailie on here aint dead............

people die...
life moves on...
mortality...is always going to be there...

Hailie is in the hospital in severe conditions, I cant stop worrying... :'-(

fuck y wasnt i ther 4 her?

there for who?

Hailie! She's in the hospital. Sometimes I worry if this site is truthfully helpful or not, there's always so many negative input that it can be unhealthy.