Ummmm Read This??

hi people how are you?i've seen that some are sad,depressed,troubles with home,want to get out,pregnant,addicted,scared,confused,lost,broken.aka not ok.i'm sorry.i'm sorry about hailie i hope she's ok.i'm sorry some are lost in depression, i'm sorry some are scared to go to sleep, i'm sorry some just dont give a fuck and are already going to a diffrent post, i'm sorry some self harm, and i'm sorry some dont get the chance to read this...for they're already gone. i still dont know why i've decided to start this but i have.i was thinking about famliy, friends, aquantences(how ever you spell that), the past,present, and future.and i thought...i'm good.me and mom dont fight so much, me and dad are talking,me and sari are fine, one of my best friends is so happy,and school is almost over.everythings good.yet i still cut my wrist.i guess it's like stop smoking in one day.i mean how can i stop after 2 years?and then i thought...how is this better?is it because i screamed in my dads face i was sorry i couldnt be the perfect daughter?is it i told mom...half the reason why i bled, is it because i let my friends see who i am and not give a fuck?i still dont know.but i'v learned that it gets better.yeah i know this seems stupid coming from a 13 year old girl who is trying to stop hating god and has turned her back on the world.but...i dont know how to make you see from here.it does get better.it gets so much better!if you would just stop having your counselor or parents or friends try to make it better for you...try making it better for yourself.just try to pick yourself up and be strong.scream dont be ashamed to cry laugh dont be ashamed some else might be crying.if you could just look at your life at a diffrent point of view!you could see a beautiful better place.have fun get out!!stop feeling sorry for yourself stop making your life worse than it is.grow up.change the things that trigger you.confront your parents.meet new people.try new things.do things that you would never do!like go bungy jumping or swing on a swing.dont cut or drink or smoke pot all of it only numbs the pain.all you can do is be strong and pick yourself up and prove to the fucked up people in this world that you can make it.that you dont give in and you are strong.everyone has fallen and have forgotten the good things.like instead of helping some pick up there books they either walk away or shove them down.dont let anyone shove you down and if they chose to walk away...their loss.as i'm writing this i ask myself why the hell am i posting this.i guess i'm just babbling.getting thoughts out.but then again thats what a diary is for right?but instead i want people to see this.i want to try to see if they know what i myself am trying to understand.if you have something to say about what i've posted.dont post on here.email me at xxtwistedtearsxx@hotmail.com cuz i've noticed when everyone posts anything usually it has an argument....and if you've taken time to read this and totally think its retarded sorry for wasting your time....take care everyone...

wow u must have had some extra time to write all that lols

thanx for takin the time to read it...and for thinking about the words in there.

tht was the longest post i have ever seen in my whole entire life

i guess so

thanks, it helped me a bit. its good to know that someone has found a way out. and that all along the way out was themselves. thanks again.

u are really sweet for posting that Rozzy!! i hope you stop cutting cuz that is a really bad hting bbelive me i have been doing it for a long time and you reLLY DONT want the scares on your body i know at the time you dont give a shit !! but when you geet older you will i have over 20 cuts on me and some of them are in my legs and i hate wearing skirts i know i am stuid for putting the there but like i sud when you cut you dont give a shit so sweetie yske my advice STOP you can do it !! and thank you again for this awsome post have a good nite always BabyGurl

that was really sweet, but very long lol... I read it all, I hope you stop cutting, :) smile for ya