i scare myself...

you scare me too...
and a good 75% of the people on here arent exactly "happy" people...
pick up your life and move on...

it is a scary thing to be like this sometimes. a lot of people on this site and in the world deal with the same things. youre not crazy, just depressed. it is scary sometimes, but you just have to continue on and try to be brave. just keep up hope things will get better. sometimes the only thing we can do is just to keep up hope, and sometimes even that thought is scary, but its the truth none the less and its what we have to deal with and face as bravely as we can.