...i wish it would end...

i cut and i get in trouble alot and have bad grades, but on top of that me and my friend got caught doing stuff and now she wants to move away. I wish she wouldn't cuz its so hard shes my best friend and i would die without her...what to do?

SAME exact things happened to me. and how old are you? cause unless she's over 18 she can't really move eithout perental permission. please comment on my poem regret(life decision)

...caught doing what sorts of stuff

well Cassi, this is a tough one. try to be posotive. i know it might seem IMPOSSIBLE! but if you set a goal for yourself, say, one month without cutting, then it will improve your grades alot, you might stay out of trouble more, and if you do that your friend might not want to move! but then if u don't cut for a month, you're not going to want to cut anymore. but if you do, and u cut after the month is over, you probably won't even enjoy it! cuz i did this and i didn't cut for a month, i started getting involved with other people, my grades went up alot! and my old best friend doesn't hate me anymore! i still do have the urge to cut ALOT! but now i know that i do have people that care about me. and trust me, today i was holding the blade, but i held back! and like, last week i cut again after the month ended, and let me tell you.. i didn't enjoy it AT ALL! i mean, i still WANT to cut and feel that good feeling of release, but i don't. and i'm not some posotive happy outgoing person! im dark, sorta punkish, and swear alot. i'm not perfect. and it's going to take a fight and some will from within, but's its DEFINITELY worth it.

Yeah what sorts of stuff?
A lesbian relationship with you?
Drugs?
A bad boyfriend?
Criminal Charges?

WHAT my imagination is running wild already LoL

ummm i got caught doing stuff
with a guy with my top off and well yea...