I just wanna Know

hi everyone, Now i just wanted to know if anyone else feels this pain i do, the pain where you feel you can't get up because the world will just drag you straight back down, the pain where no matter what anyone else says you will still believe that you are just not worth it, the pain where cutting is better than not!, i just wanna die, leave all of this but i wanna know how to stay strong, can you all help me please!

its a hard kind of pain to deal with. it feels like things will never get better, so why even bother. but what you have to do is just try and keep up hope that it will get better. try to do something about it even if you think it wont help, at least you tried, just dont give up hope and dont stop trying. be brave in the face of all the pain and prove to life and everyone in it that you can do anything that it tries to throw at you. keep up that hope and try and find alternatives to cutting that give the same response without the guilt afterwards, like poetry, that always helps, or reading, or writing, or drawing. there are many alternatives that will help you get out of this pain more than cutting ever will. good luck and dont give up hope!

Yep, everyday, all the time!

Hey Lucy... yeah I know that feeling. It really sucks and it's all just depression. It is possible to overcome it and it's really important to overcome it. Read my poem "Lovely Depression", see if you can relate to it. It shows exactly how I feel. Now, I am diagnosed with depression and I've even been given pills (diagnosed after my first suicide attempt). I don't take the pills because I don't want to be dependent on them. You just have to find the will in yourself, that little bit of confidence to push yourself forward and change the way you feel. It's all very possible.

I'm always here to help... you can e-mail me... my private contact is given.

Good Luck and Please Take Care ~ Tina

thanks tina and i read your poem, it was really powerful and heaps helpful, but i still feel like im the only one, is there somethign levft for me, and im sorry you attempted suicide

Trust me, you really aren't the only one. You'll be surprised how many people feel the same was you do. Please try to take that into consideration. It's not just you...

thanks Tina, you sound heaps nice and supportive, i just wanna know who else feelsx like this so i can confide, please, everyone feel free to talk

Hey lucy, yeah i know how you feel. Its horrible and really hard to get out of but trust me, with someone there you will. Im strating to get up again :) good luck hun xXx

I have know that pain well, through most of my life i've felt it. really the only way i deal with it is by telling my self every day that i'm a better person than 90% of the people out there. i can take all there BS and still smile. there wrods and actions can never hurt me unless i let it.

Hey Lucy I know how you feel. As you can tell, a lot of people do.

I've felt this way for a good portioin of my life. Long before I knew about cutting and suicide. I'm the middle child. I get looked over a lot. My brother that is 2 years younger then I am, has Down syndrom and Autism. I love him greatly, and wouldn't change a thing about him, but because of the problems that he has with jsut about everything, I always felt that all the attention was put on him from my parents.

I've always had that feeling of being alone, with no one to turn to, because I thought that no one ever cared.

I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I'm also border line bipolar. It's hard to deal with sometimes, because I'll break down at the weirdest times but I also tell myself that I'm not alone. People are worse off then I am!

Just know that you are not alone dear, and you can talk to me if you wish. I've had a life let me tell ya! lol...I might be able to help you!

I'm sure anyone on here can.

hey tina im on antidepressants too and i wish i hadnt taken the first one as i cant tell how i would be without them.

i know precisely how you feel, lucy, and i think its great how supportive everyone is, im not sure if i could tell some friends about my thoughts and emotions.

naturally, news spreads and pretty much everyone knows about my suicide attempt at school but even some friends havent seen my scars, but i feel so much more comfortable with you guys if you can understand that . . .

lucy, and whoever wants it, whenever i feel really down when the weight of the world is too heavy even for a smile, i just remember that 'tomorrow is another day'. its not mine or original but it helps you think of sunnier times.
-x- keep dreaming -x-