i'm so stupid

hi

well i don't know if anyone actually reads these things but i just need to write something.. i was thinking of turning it into a poem but i have such a bad headache i can barely think... i've had something on my mind for almost forever now and i can't stop thinking about it.. it's really hard to explain but for some reason i can not see myself living past this summer.. i see no future for myself after that, i don't see myself getting past the age of 17, and i have the STRONGEST feeling that it's all true.. i really can't explain it and i'm too tired now to even try but I just feel like this and i know it's common with teenagers to feel depressed and all that which i'm also going through but this is such a feeling that i've never had a stronger feeling about anything.. whenever i think of this summer i see myself living but then not making it past the summer not even starting school... i would write more but my eye lids are closing as i speak... thanks if you made it this far please comment if you wish bye ~much love take care

Sometimes the future is hard to see- but don't think that you won't make it past the summer. Take it day by day, and not let your inner thoughts sway your decisions (if that even makes sense).
I know how it feels, most days I can anticipate, imagine, the next day... other times I can't. But I'm still here.
You may have the strongest feeling that it's true; but the reality is, it may NOT be true. The future isn't set, keep living life and don't worry about it all.

I'm sure any other advice this website could give you would be more helpful.
Take care.

i had that, i thought i wudnt make it past 16 but i did. u prolly will too.

Yeah, I know how you feel. The best advice I can give you is stop being so pessimistic. If you keep thinking that you won't live past this summer, than that will be branded in your head. But if you keep telling yourself that you will live, then you will live on with your own will-power. It's all in your head sweety. It's in all of our heads... we just don't realize it. Stop thinking negatively, you might see a change.

Please take care ~ Tina