i'm sorry . . .

okay, i'm really sorry you guys, cuz i know you've heard this so many times. but i really am serious, and i'm really looking for help here. i didn't cut for 3 months, and now i am again. i feel like there's no reason for me to be alive, and i thought about killing myself. please, if you have any advice, try to help me. i really don't want to die yet, but i'm starting to scare myself.