I need advice or help or something

Well heres the thing, Been serverly depressed for a while, and it seems like my best friends around me are too. Amy, my role model, recently told me she wanted to commit suicide. I spent all day friday at the hospital with my bestfriend because she needed to be admitted, she wasn't safe from herself. Its really hard. my uncle committed suicide. My cousin(my sister) has tried, I've watched her try. I'm so scared and out of it... and it seems like nothing helps. No one knows. Well I tried to tell Amy, but she doesn't do anything. I cant tell anyone... I want to cut so bad. I've never done it, but I know it gives great relief. I want to do it so I can pull up my sleave and Show Amy or my sister, or some one and get them to realise I'm so hurt.... That scares me. Help!!!

Ok firstly DONT CUT... you may think it will be release but all it does is cause you and the people around you more pain, Also you can get addicted to it, If you want them to see hwo hurt you are just tell them, if they dont listen write them a letter explaining how you feel, maybe you just havent told her in the right way, Try and remind your friend how much she means to you, always be there for her no matter what, Tell them how much it makes you worry seeing them like this... I hope things get better for you

Theres nothing left to do....:'(

Thanks Everyone... I think I just needed someone to talk to.... so many memories. It hurts really bad, especially when the only one I told about these memories pretended to care for one conversation then hasn't said anything about it ever again. I guess she really didn't care.... I just feel like theres nothing left to do and I'm always going to be this way:'(

I'm not going to say that i know exactly how you feel because everyone is different but i can say that i have been in a similar position all except i had started cutting and let me tell you hun it's true what everybody says, it does just make it all worse. I've been in the it's always going to be like this phase too but i did stop cutting, at least i have for now and you do get better, trust me babe. If you need someone to talk to then you can always message me through my profile, memories hurt but the more you talk about them the less the hurt and the less they haunt.

You can make it, you have been so strong not to cut from what i've read and i'm so impressed that you have made it this far.

-ellie

awwe, ellie thank you soo much!! sometimes thats all I need to hear.... I know everything will eventually get better but it hurts so much to wait. No I haven't cut, but the temptations are getting so strong. I just want to do it to make people realise how much I'm hurt and how bad the memeroies are haunting me!!! :'(