please to all the boys reading this, i know its long but i want a guys prospective, girls your comments are greatly appreciated also...
okay you guys, here goes!!! me and my boyfreind (yes the one i write all my poems about) have been getting into arguments about how he never calls or he forgets to call me . i feel like i have been replaced by his friends, may i remind you that he's 16 and these friends are like 23. you would assume these friends are smart cuz they're older, WRONG! they smoke pot and cheat on their long time girlfriends and i dont want all this stupid behavior to rub of on him. He loves me i know he does, but when he doesnt call i seem to get so clingy i guess it makes him wanna not call me even more. and ive tried to talk to him so many times about it but all i get at the end of the day is me yelling at him about how he doesnt love me anymore and all he says 2 me is "babe im sleepy, ill call you in the morning!" i love him so much that i cant seem to ever stay mad at him, even if he hurts me so much i still tend to call him and forgive him...also let me tell you guys that my parents are VERY strict and i can never go out, so basically im always home and all these problems get carried away into me crying for hours and hours. just the thought of not being with him makes me go crazy at times.
Here is another thing since i cant go out, most of the time we spend together is on the phone but lately he goes to the movies and all these adult arcades where i know skanky whoz hang out and off course this makes a little worried, but i trust him its the women i dotn trust. hes very charming and attractive, i always find girls flirting with him. He'll tell me he's going to call me in 2 hours or so but hell call me in 6,7 or 8 hours. i mean yeah i dont blame him that much cuz time passes by quick when your out with your friends, but he needs to realize each minute that he doesnt call me seems like forever to me. Hes also a different race from me which is absolutly against my european culture that my parents are so into. i dont know i just seem to be so depressed all the time. i gave up all my friends to be with him, they didnt want to talk to me after i started going out with a "mexican" guy!!! how do you guys think i felt ... i gave up my friends, i disrespected my family's wishes, shit i gave him my virginity, so he wont even give me 30 minutes of his dayto call me and tell me he's thinking of me or he misses me. basically im giving him everything he wants and im getting absolutly nothing in return. i dont know just someone please give my ideas or even some insight. especially from the guys. Just to show you how much i love this guy... please read some of my peoms...
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