Why do i feel like this???????

: ( I don't know why i feel like this but i like being sad. I would rather be sad than be happy. Everyday at school If i am happy i sometimes feel uncormfortable and want to be sad. I like sitting alone i want to be alone. and just sit and think. I stare into space constantly and i like it.

Am i screwed up?? Does anyone eles feel like this??

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I don't like crying tho. I like it wen i am alone in bed to scream into my pillow and cry but i like being sad and down like just to myself amd alone! I don't understand this!!!! :@

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I think staying unhappy is a defense mechanism. If you're not happy, you cant be pushed down any more and you feel protected. You're not screwed up. Also, i think the feeling of sympathy could be comforting for people so you may like being unhappy in that sense. But dont worry you're not screwed up.

i dunno :(

no, your not screwed its just a feeling you had with you your whole life and now your used to it and it would be weird if you didn't feel as you do...........

if you are screwed up then this world is, is all i can say. It's ok i do that too

ok. I am listening to everybody changing - keane and crying my eyes out right now. LOL! yet another "great" day at school. *sigh* oh well. I dunno......... it is strange tho. How i wanna be sad not just feel it i wanna be it!!!!! :(

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