I'm lost guys i'm just lost

ok i don't know what to do i have this ex boyfriend that i cant get out of my mind he's everywhere i turn with his new freshmen girlfriend (nothing against freshmen) but i don't know what to do cause i'm a sophmore, and hes a junior and i ppl tell me i can do better and i know i can, he puts me through so much stuff and i'm just tired of fighting cause oh once i say something thats a joke he'll stay mad at me forever and i always have to beg for him to call me again, and what happens i start crying myself to sleep and i just don't want to do that anymore, i just need something more to help me, everytime i try and like someone else i fell like i can't because then jacob (my ex) i can just see it he gets really really hurt and starts asking all these questions, and i just don't know what to do plz help!!

yeah but i feel bad because i'm not saying i regret our relationship but i just wish our friendship was the same, like it was, casue i just wish he could talk to me about other girls (well he already does) but i don't wanna cry about it anymore. do you know what i mean?

its fine yeah were friends and everything but its cause i like begged him last week to talk to me, and its when were friends that he treats me bad, and i already know ppl say i just need to get over it and move on but its like noone understands its so differant than what ppl think, i can't go a day without having a little converstaion with him, and yeah

yeah but how? its so hard like everywhere i turn, i see him and his new girlfriend, or i see one of his friends (he's pretty well known in this school) and yeah its just to hard

yeah i try but you know the truth that i is that he moved on, like when i was going to go up and just say hey today like i usually do and his stuiped friend just cuts in front of me like i wasn't there and gave him a hug i swear i had my fist ready fo fight her but then i thought whats the point if he's gonna act like that? ya know i just wish i could move on like he did, and not have one memory of him like an hour ago i passed by this place we use to meet and then i just sat there and cryed, and was thinking gosh me and him were here just like 2 months ago kissing and laughing and he was picking me up, and everything you know, its just hard!

i'm sick of time, time is going by to fast, and i just wanna go back, i don't wanna go to the future i wanna be back in the past with him, and then i'd go to the future with him!!!!!

dude now y is it one day that he'll be in my mind constanly and the next day its like oh well i understand its over and everything, like yesterday i missed him and today i'm like well he has a girl friend and whatever, y can't i be like this everyday?