just couldnt take anymore

ok so i used to be a cutter and i havent technically done it for 63 days. but the other day i "scratched" w/ my safety pin but it didnt bleed. i did this because i was so upset and jus couldnt take any more. i knew i didnt want to make it bleed, i just wanted to feel the pain. so now my problem is that since i "scratched", i've felt happier and want to do it again. but i also dont want to do it again b/c i'll let so many people down. my parents know that i used to cut and i don't want to tell them about what i've recently done...does anyone have any suggestions on what i should do? b/c i feel like i dont have anyone to talk to about this...

umm...ok then...that didnt really help...

i think its all in your head. im currently a "cutter" but i know enough about it now to know that most f it is in my head. i think it will help, therefore it does, i think i will feel happier and therefore i do. if you think of it that way, it might help fight the need to cut again.
~Freak~