i lost my best friend...

i have this really good friend who i've known for about 3 years. i like him as more than a friend, and i think he feels the same about me because he asked me out once. he listens to EVERYTHING i complain about and he is really funny and everything, and i talk to him everyday. i met up with im at the mall one day and my friend (at the time) was there and when i got home he asked for her sn. i gave it to him and they started talking online alot and eventually started meeting up sometimes and hangin out. then stuff happened between me and this girl, and now she has a restraining order on me and my mom and the police told me to avoid all of her friends and anyone who is associated with her in any way, shape or form. this means i can't talk to this guy anymore. i went a couple days without talking to him, but it's driving me crazy. plus, this girl is coming to school saying that she goes out with him... i dont know what to do!!!

she got the restraining order on me beacuse some shit happened to me and i told my friend about it and she spread it all around the school and told the police about it and they came to my house and i refused to give them and information about this guy who raped me and they thought i was crazy, plus i have some other problem which im not getting into because whenever i tell anyone about it they get freaked out and think im psycho. i got sent to a mental institute for awhile and tried drugs once and wrote her a retarded letter and its a long story but... yeah.

lauren, i can't go out with any of her ex boyfriends because she doesn't have any... she's a lesbian which makes it even worse. and brittney, i can't just forget about him. he's my best friend and the only person i can really talk to. i've tried to just forget about him. he's on my mind constantly...