Question?...

K im a very closed off person, i dont like people knowing about my problems....

heres my question (^^keeping that in mind).. im dealing with ALOT OF DIFFICULT THINGS (1 my dad has cancer) and ive been feeling soooo down since i found out, i dont know how to deal with it. I have this fear that if i tell one of my friends once wrong their either not gonna care or their gonna tell someone. I dont really have a best friend right now, so when it comes to trust with just my good friends im iffy (im not very trusting)...

so should i confide, and have my fear become reality? or should i just deal with it some other way?

Sometimes it helps to tell someone. Of course they will care, and if you ask them not to tell, why would they? You can always talk to a trusted adult or a school councelor (sp) Do you feaqr them treating you differently?

Why would it matter if people found out your father had cancer? That's not embarrassing, that's life. Though it is extremely sad people deal with that kind of stuff all the time. Talk to someone, let your feelings out don't worry about who is going to find out. If a "friend" treats you differently or makes fun because your father has cancer they are NO REAL friend anyway.

I know i've said this before but writing really helps. whenever something really bad happends to me I write it down. I am not a very trusting person and I have a hard time trusting my friends, but I write untill my hand hurts. it's not like my notebook is going to tell people, so I have nothing to worry about...unless a mean person finds it and tells people...but I doubt that will happen if you hide it well. keep your chin up and pray.

i am kinda scared that people will treat me differently, i dont want anyones pity. but i do want to tell someone so i can have some comfort (i know it sounds selfish, but its just one of those times)...but i dont want whoever i tell to treat me differently n be all sensitive towards me, so we cant have fun:S... i dont know its so confusing