THE TRUTH

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by LAST RONIN

Is it worth it? Is life worth all the pain that you have to put up with it? I don’t know, I don’t care.. I am to tired, to drunk to give a damn any more…. What do we do where do we go, if I had a kid tomorrow by the time he/she is 21 I will be over 50 years old.. what the hell is the point, do I ever get to see my own grandchildren…..where do I go what do I do.. I am just so tired………………………………………….. I want to know the point to life……………………………….. I am tired of chasing it.. why is that we chase it so hard… why do we chase love, why do we chase money so hard, no matter how much we have its never enough.. do we save? do we spend ?…….no matter what at the end its all worthless, life is worthless. . why do it, why live it… another summer comes and another winter fallows… its all pointless…………………………why the hell am I here… I should have never been here… I was never ment to be…….I hate the time and space that I take…….life is a big F'ing joke…… I can’t understand it anymore…. I can’t find the point…. So What I work another 37 years to live the next 4 or 5 enjoying the payoff… NO THANKS……I swear the only time I think clearly is when I am drunk… I think this is why I use to get drunk every night….. I give up…. I give it all up… no more smoking, no more drinking…. Yeah I take care of my body so I can live extra few years in this misery…… I am tired of her hunting me…. Every time I sleep she is there.. I don’t want to think about her.. We were never ment to be, I am just tired of her being there all the time………..I hate this place….. I hate being alone…It makes me think… I do much better when I don’t think………If there was a place called Hell I am in it……. Everything is made-up… life, love, and everything else is something that someone else made up and we live it…. I write this because in the morning I will not remember and I will be back to the same fake person who lives my life…………………. I just don’t get anything… dose anybody?

Look into modern theories on ideology, or even Marxist theories on ideology, and you will begin to see why we are all just chasing our tails in life.

Those were pretty wise words Baby Girl!!