GEORGI!! come here!

u shd have seen me, i stopped breathing im sure of it! Megan was in my room and i was on my landing and i was literally on the floor clutching my stomach i was in so much pain from laughing!!!! ahahahahahha o lord here we go again!!!!

sierra! oh, snap.. you're already gone. ::sigh:: we'll miss you, sierra!

yeah we will, heya Zac, how r u?

Hi Georgi this is Sierra's Nana, I wanted to tell you that you were welcome for the beanies and I'm glad Sierra got to talk to you. Making her happy makes me happy and I'm so glad she got to come. She's grown up much too fast. I love her and Savannah both dearly but Sierra has always been really close to me. Anyway I'm glad she had some time to spend talking with you both ways. You take care and please stay in touch with her she looks forward to your letters so much more than you will ever know. They're the bright spot in her days. Love you too "Sierra & Georgi's Nana"

awwwww thanku for everything!!!!!!! you are sooo amazing, thankyou!

Of couse i will keep in touch with sierra :) shes like a sister to me !

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Hello everyone. How are all of you?

Good, Nat, and yourself?

Hey Shiky, Georgi! How are you gals?

Hey foxy! i am fine thanku! and sierras nana thankyou so much for everything i love u like ur my own nana :) sierra is very lucky :)

how is everyone?

lol heya, glad ur feeling ok! i feel SO shit right now, im bloody pissed off at my so called friends and just wanna vanish into thin air, i really do :( Stupid best friend. im losiing my other best mates coz of her and her stubid stubborn behaviour. i want to shout and scream at her but i cant because then ill lose her as well. :( what do i keep doing wrong? why do i keep falling for the fucking trap?!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
xxxxx

thankuuuuuuu! im ok now, got a rehearsal for the play im in now, so i will speak to u soooooooon :)

xxxxx

i think shes left for a while

Georgi!!!!!!!!!!!!! My Girl!!! How are you deary? lol!! We should liven these boards up some more...everyone is like dead!! lol!!!!!

how about we change the Meatball Hoagie club into a cult? lmao!!! Yeaahhhhh.......lol!!! Except, not a loony homicidal one.....lol!!

::happy dance::

I love Zac still...so much, Georgi....he drives me crazy, but hardly ever talks to me...it hurts, and at times i wonder if he's only saying that to keep me from doing something stupid, but I don't think he would....I don't know what to think, but i can't let myself get hurt! Ahhh!! Tell me what to do, please, that doesn't include forgetting or stop loving Zac!!!!!

I love you so much Georgi!

~Sierra

__Meatball Hoagie #2__

Oh, Sierra... isn't love complicated? He might hurt you, hon, and then again he might not. Lately he hasn't been the most compassionate. He's so confused, and he's hurting people that love him in the process (Including me). There's so much that I wish he could do, but he's just... uncapable. You don't have to forget him or stop loving him... I haven't, after all. I won't stop caring for him, but I'm going to wait, this time. I'm not the one that's gonna apologize... I've done nothing wrong. And you haven't, either. It's him. Let him fix it, because trust me... the more you cater to him, the more he'll take advantage of you because he KNOWS you will always apologize. Don't give in, Sierra. Be strong, ok? We can do this together.

Hey, Georgi! How are ya?

"The Meatball Hoagie Non-Loony Cult"... It has a ring to it.

Mwah to you both!

Car

*!*Rhubarb*!*

Haha, true..i like it...lol!!!

But, Rhubarb....It's so hard because I do feel sorry, and I WANT to be there for him, I want him to be happy, I can't leave him like that, or let him feel helpless!! I seriously LOVE him to death! I would do anything for him! And I don't know seriously what to do because I don't know if he honestly loves me or not.....and i'm not sure if I want to know!

Ahh....Carlee, I can't hurt him!!!!!!!! If I do, he WILL stop loving me even if he does...at night, I convince myself he can't possibly, but it's so different when I'm talking to him. AHHH!! *bangs head on glass*

Ow...that sorta hurt!!

~Sierra

_---Meatball Hoagie #2---_

You won't hurt him, Sierra, you'll be helping him. I told myself that for three years and all I got was a broken heart and more guilt trips than I can count.

You don't have to leave him, Sierra, but it'll help him to see how important his friends are. I'd do anything for him, too. Hell, I sacrificed our friendship to keep him safe, and now he hates me and cusses at me all the time. I think he's one confused kid...

He's not gonna stop loving you. Just, hang in there, and don't worry... God does everything for a reason. Hang in there, sweet pea!

:gives sierra chocolate: There, all better. ;)

Car

*!*Rhubarb!*!

haha, Yipee Skipee!! CHOCOLATE! lol!! A woman's best friend...actually a cookie is, but that's close enoug! lol!!

What do you want me to do exactly? I rarely ever talk to him, and it nearly, almost literally, KILLS me to be mad at him! He's never once yelled at me, or cussed me out before. Carlee, I just don't even know if he loves me at all!! AHHH!!! I'm so confused!! I don't know what you want me to do,...talk to him? But if I leave him behind, which I cannot possibly do, he'll only feel hurt. It won't help,...i don't think. I'm sure he's going to forgive you eventually, Carlee!!!!!!! I just know it! I mean, you're so sweet and all, and you've been his best friend for like..ever? lol! So there's no doubt in my mind that he'll be mad for long!!!

I'm afraid a broken heart is inevitable at this point....where i stand, I'm looking at a serious heartache. I feel so weak and helpless right now for no reason at all. I don't know what is happening, but I feel like he's slipping away and I'm so scared. I don't want to risk my friendship for him, but if I were you Carlee, I would have to save him! I know he understands that! He even said that in a comment.

Meatball Hoagies 4 Everr!! lol! haha...

ohh goody...we're having chicken fajhetas (Sp? Lmao) for dinner! Yipeee!

GO RELIENT K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOT WOOT!!!!! Omg, that band drives me crazy...the lead singer's voice is sooo hot!!! My insides get all tingley, lol! He rocks..i just gotta find out..his name...lol!!

Soda anyone? *Swigs some wine* I mean....Sprite!

Sprite....right....Anyone want "Sprite"? lol!!!

Jk!

~Sierra

_meatball hoagie #2_

I'd talk to him, Sierra, but I don't know if it will help. I know you say I should help him, but I tried to, and all i got was that i was a f***ing liar. :shrugs: I can't feel guilty about what I did. I did if for him, and if he can't accept that, well, maybe he never really cared for me.

Just, be careful, Sierra. I can't bear to see another heart broken by his charm...

Yah, wine!! I mean, sprite! Yay sprite!
And cookies for all!

;)
*!*Rhubarb*!*

Car, omg,...you don't deserve any of this, I know!! Trust me, I'm praying so hard this won't happen to me too, not because I'm selfish or anything!, but because I'm already so easily broken, that it probably wont take much.

Now...I really want to be true to my meatball hoagie self and member, but this is seriously starting to clash with my love life! lol!! I hope there aren't any policies against that...lol.

How long ago was this anyways?

I really don't know what to do *tear* ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

~Sierra

--Meatball Hoagie#2--

you have the biggest heart I've ever seen, Sierra... but it's made of glass. Be careful, sweet pea... we love you too much!

Be true to you and nothing can go wrong, m'dear.

How long ago was what?

do what you feel is right!

*!*Rhubarb*!*

Agh...what I felt was right was running away to Colorado the moment I met Zac, but that's not going to help anyone.

How long ago did all that stuff happen? Like..you trying to help Zac...

Hmm...thank you for compliment...I hate my heart...I should've tried cutting that instead of my wrists. *Not that I cut now or plan to*

God all this is going to bite me in the ass, I know it!

::pout::

Pass the "Sprite" please...lol!

~Sierra

Oh shizzle! I forgot!! Aghh...sorry..I'm such a bad meatball hoagie...*slaps head* Bad Sierra Bad Sierra~~~

^

__Meatball Hoagie #2__

~Sierra

__Meatball Hoagie#2__

Silly girl.

Um, it was... friday, i do believe, that i told about it. Sigh...

YOu do have a huge heart!!!!

*!*Rhubarb*!*

lol!!! Where is he anyway? I hope he's okay!!!! Are you sure he's not going to do anything stupid? Not that...he's..stupid, lol!!! Just looking out for him I suppose...

oh..i'm soooo sorry though! Yikes...what happened exactly? Like...I only know so little...lol.

~Sierra

--Meatball Hoagie#2--

Going To Sleep...To Be Continued..lol~

~Sierra

__Meatball Hoagie#2__

hey sierra! just read all ur posts, thts sad!! Zac is silly!!! U dont need him! U have ut meatball hoagie!! hehe! what every1 is saying is right, seriously. i love you!

I will sit on his head very soon i can assure you!! lol! and pls dont "do anything stupid" like u said, thts not cool! pls! im here for u and i love you!

rom meatball hoagie #1!

lol! I reserved that spot for you, you know? The Meatball Hoagie #1~~~ lol!!!!!

Don't sit on his head!! lol! Hahaha...we're both good now. Oddly enough~! *cough cough* It was our dear Rhubarb on the phone impersonating Emma, lol!! But she was just trying to save me from Zac who was leading me on. lol! She's such a great meatball hoagie! lol!!

I won't do anything stupid.....::sigh:: I promise!

Love you lots!!

~Sierra

good good! otherwise i will cry! i love u so much! xxx

i just had choir. OMG u no tht argument thing on bebo? well one of the girls commented, ive deleted it now, but she said directed at you:
"sierra you met georgie on a depression website so dont u dare tell us about happiness" or summit like that, i went MENTAL I TELL YOU!!!! Do not fear i will stick up for u, and meggie is sticking up for u too! ill tell u everything about the arguement soon ok? basically these two girls, rose and jess are being bitches and i really honestly have done nothing wrong its ridiculous!!! lol love you lots xxxxxxxxxxx

heya sierra and geo, just wanted to say, I'm totally with you with all this crapola with rose and jess, they are biatches and they should go screw themselves with a big spade (sorry to be so eugh)! love u lots and lots xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

awwww meg!!!! :D *big hugs for meg!* love u so so so so so much :D:D:D:D! totally with u on the spade thing! hehe xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Okay good....lol. I was afraid momentarily Megsy had gone to the dark side...Ohmyfgod though! Hahahaha,...this is not only a depression site, stupid..tell her I said that..lol!

She's awfully ignorant if she thinks she knows me by the things I've said. I can tell she's a bitch without being ignorant just by reading what she said and/or has done to you. Grr..I really do hate people like that...

I'll sit on them for you, my love!! :-D!!

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

The story? Well, I dunno if I am supposed to tell that... oh, well. Basically, he cut really bad on his wrists, so I told his sister, who told his parents. Now he hates me for caring enough to make sure he was safe, but w/e. He'll get over it, I suppose... He keeps blaming me for the cutting since i didn't answer my phone when he called. I was in a freaking movie. The world doesn't revolve around him... And now he wants to send me on a guilt trip? No thank you.

I have one heck of a ghetto butt, so I will be honored to sit on any b****es that bother y'all~

Car

*!*Rhubarb*!*

Car....seriously...I stared crying hysterically after I read that...it hit me so hard.......You're a blessing, you know that? He's so lucky to have a friend like you, and I'm lucky to even know you! But I feel so freaking suicidal right now....I hate so many things right now..I'm cornered, I'm weak, and I'm vulnerable. And my crying in the shadows and in the dark doesn't ease this pain. I can't write a poem cuz my words get all jumbled and I don't know what to say....it's not as easy as it used to be!!!! I'm losing it and my world feels as if its crumbling around me......

Hahaha...I saw your butt on myspace, it's nothing compared to mine, lol!! My butt is so ghettooooo! lol!

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie #2__

Omg, Sierra, are you ok??? I'm on AIM, where are you???

Don't do anything jsut yet, ok?

Car

*!*Rhubarb*!*

I'm fine....I went to sleep, I'll be on tomorrow...Thank you though!! You're sooo sweet!!

I didn't do anything, but right before I fell asleep, which I was still crying, my dad came in and he thought I was asleep, so he knelt beside my bed and pet my hair back and said some really sweet things. It was heartbreaking, that the second he walked out...Omg..I don't think I've cried so hard in my life...I felt so guilty, so sad, so thankful, so many emotions @ once...omg....

~Sierra

__Meatball Hoagie#2__

hey si si! i will talk to u later k? love u loads and loads and loads :) stay happy, be strong!

Ur one and only meatball hoagie #1

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Okay my loveable Meatball Hoagie!!!

Hmm...Georgi! You forgot to give her a name??? nooowayy!!!

Unbelievable! Think of something unique..like something that could make milk come out of my nose cuz I'm laughing so hard, lol!!!!!

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

Awwww, Sierra, your "dad" moment is so sweet! I'm glad you are ok.

Yeah! Think of somethin' hilarious. Rhubarb... it was funny at the time! *Is it still? Who knows?* Um... what is milk-comin-out-of-Sierra's-nose hilarious?? :Ponders:

Car

*!*Rhubarb!*!

Hahaha I meant that it had to be funny enough that if I were drinking milk, I'd laugh so hard that milk would come out of my nose! lol!!!!!!!!

nasty, I know..lol!

I know it was...Agh...my eyes are still swollen!!

Think, Georgi, THINK!

~lol~

~~Sierra

___Meatball Hoagie#2___

hehe okay u can be .......dun dun dun

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